1 00:00:11,060 --> 00:00:13,620 [upbeat music] 2 00:00:23,350 --> 00:00:26,490 [bright upbeat music] 3 00:00:30,120 --> 00:00:32,950 ♪ Remember Saturdays ♪ 4 00:00:32,980 --> 00:00:36,120 ♪ Remember celebrating ♪ 5 00:00:36,160 --> 00:00:39,120 ♪ Feels so far ♪ 6 00:00:39,160 --> 00:00:41,890 ♪ Everything you said ♪ 7 00:00:41,920 --> 00:00:45,270 ♪ How you wanna be my friend ♪ 8 00:00:45,300 --> 00:00:48,340 ♪ No wonder ♪ [car engine rumbling] 9 00:00:48,370 --> 00:00:53,350 ♪ That I've been spending all this time out on my own ♪ 10 00:00:54,380 --> 00:00:59,350 ♪ I wish you'd be the one to call when I'm alone ♪ 11 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:05,050 ♪ Haunt me like you want me ♪ 12 00:01:05,940 --> 00:01:08,670 ♪ Always gonna be your baby ♪ 13 00:01:08,710 --> 00:01:12,050 ♪ I'm always gonna be ♪ 14 00:01:12,090 --> 00:01:17,020 ♪ Only what you show me ♪ 15 00:01:17,990 --> 00:01:20,960 ♪ I'm always gonna be your baby ♪ 16 00:01:20,990 --> 00:01:24,790 ♪ I'm always gonna be your baby ♪ 17 00:01:24,820 --> 00:01:26,620 - [Ben] Hi, this is Ben. Sorry I missed your call. 18 00:01:26,650 --> 00:01:27,720 Uh, just leave me a message 19 00:01:27,760 --> 00:01:29,140 and I'll get right back to you. 20 00:01:29,170 --> 00:01:30,930 Thanks. [phone beeps] 21 00:01:30,970 --> 00:01:34,560 - Hi, hi, they, they let me check in early, 22 00:01:34,590 --> 00:01:36,940 way early, so I'm here early. 23 00:01:38,080 --> 00:01:40,010 I- I know you're probably still on your flight, 24 00:01:40,050 --> 00:01:42,150 but I'm excited for you to be here. 25 00:01:42,190 --> 00:01:42,980 [trunk lid thuds] [door squeaks] 26 00:01:43,020 --> 00:01:44,810 ♪ What would I have to do ♪ 27 00:01:44,840 --> 00:01:46,950 ♪ 'Cause I don't wanna ghost ♪ 28 00:01:46,980 --> 00:01:48,810 - [Fran] Um, I left your key at the front desk, 29 00:01:48,850 --> 00:01:50,370 so you can just let yourself in, 30 00:01:50,400 --> 00:01:52,340 and so you won't have to wait for me, 31 00:01:52,370 --> 00:01:55,060 in, in case I'm in the shower or something. 32 00:01:55,100 --> 00:01:58,030 ♪ I don't need someone to ♪ 33 00:01:58,060 --> 00:02:01,030 - I should have everything ready for when you arrive. 34 00:02:01,070 --> 00:02:03,480 Um, I want this to be comfortable. 35 00:02:03,520 --> 00:02:07,900 [gloves snap] [bright upbeat music] 36 00:02:07,940 --> 00:02:09,840 [Fran gasps] ♪ Gonna be your baby ♪ 37 00:02:09,870 --> 00:02:13,050 ♪ I'm always gonna be ♪ 38 00:02:13,080 --> 00:02:17,530 ♪ Only what you show me ♪ ♪ Only what you show me ♪ 39 00:02:17,570 --> 00:02:18,740 [car whooshing] 40 00:02:18,780 --> 00:02:21,880 ♪ I'm always gonna be your baby ♪ 41 00:02:21,920 --> 00:02:23,260 ♪ I'm always gonna be ♪ 42 00:02:23,300 --> 00:02:25,540 - [Fran] And I also know it's complicated. 43 00:02:25,580 --> 00:02:28,160 [upbeat music] 44 00:02:29,790 --> 00:02:32,960 Uh, but also kinda wonderful, 45 00:02:33,000 --> 00:02:36,280 and I'm glad we're doing this, finally. [chuckles] 46 00:02:36,310 --> 00:02:39,800 [bright upbeat music] 47 00:02:39,830 --> 00:02:42,590 I- I want this to be, you know, special and not weird, 48 00:02:42,630 --> 00:02:46,560 and I- I wanna respect whatever it is you need 49 00:02:46,600 --> 00:02:49,390 and want during this time, reconnecting. 50 00:02:49,430 --> 00:02:51,980 [upbeat music] 51 00:02:55,850 --> 00:02:59,300 And I- I promise to communicate the same, 52 00:02:59,330 --> 00:03:01,510 as it pertains to me. 53 00:03:01,540 --> 00:03:04,890 Oh, oh, I- I left you a little something special, 54 00:03:04,920 --> 00:03:08,030 uh, just to get things started. 55 00:03:08,070 --> 00:03:10,520 [air whooshing] ♪ Always ♪ 56 00:03:10,550 --> 00:03:11,830 [bright upbeat music] 57 00:03:11,860 --> 00:03:15,110 - [Fran] And yeah, I'll see you soon, so- 58 00:03:15,140 --> 00:03:17,110 ♪ Gonna be your baby ♪ 59 00:03:17,140 --> 00:03:18,970 - [Fran] Uh, bye, bye. 60 00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:22,110 Uh, goodbye, bye-bye. 61 00:03:22,150 --> 00:03:23,250 [bright upbeat music] ♪ Gonna be your baby ♪ 62 00:03:23,290 --> 00:03:26,640 ♪ I'm always gonna be your baby ♪ 63 00:03:26,670 --> 00:03:29,470 [bright upbeat music] 64 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:30,880 [door thuds] 65 00:03:30,920 --> 00:03:32,020 - Oh, oh, oh! 66 00:03:32,060 --> 00:03:36,400 Oh, the password for the thing is 1, 1, 1, 1, 11, 11. 67 00:03:37,850 --> 00:03:40,170 Like looking at the clock in calculus, 68 00:03:40,200 --> 00:03:42,930 almost there, we're on the right track. [chuckles] 69 00:03:42,960 --> 00:03:44,070 - "You're being called to fight evil." 70 00:03:44,100 --> 00:03:45,690 - [Fran] And being called to fight evil, 71 00:03:45,720 --> 00:03:46,550 like we used to say. 72 00:03:46,590 --> 00:03:47,730 - Nice. 73 00:03:47,760 --> 00:03:51,070 - So, um, yeah, 11, 11. Easy, I thought. 74 00:03:53,590 --> 00:03:55,630 Okay, [sighs] bye. 75 00:03:55,670 --> 00:03:58,810 [phone beeps] 76 00:03:58,840 --> 00:03:59,670 [Ben sighs] 77 00:03:59,700 --> 00:04:04,670 [phone thuds] [car horn honks] 78 00:04:09,610 --> 00:04:12,160 [Ben sniffles] 79 00:04:15,750 --> 00:04:18,720 [traffic whooshing] 80 00:04:23,000 --> 00:04:25,760 [zipper rasping] 81 00:04:28,350 --> 00:04:31,010 [air whooshing] 82 00:04:40,160 --> 00:04:43,230 [Ben exhales deeply] 83 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:52,310 - [Ben] 1, 1, 1, 1. 84 00:04:55,520 --> 00:04:58,660 [Fran sighing] 85 00:04:58,690 --> 00:05:02,800 - Thank you, Ben, for being my sperm donor. 86 00:05:02,840 --> 00:05:05,670 [traffic droning] 87 00:05:08,050 --> 00:05:10,530 Your patience and care in the lead-up to this moment, 88 00:05:10,570 --> 00:05:13,880 this process, has really been admirable. 89 00:05:15,120 --> 00:05:18,230 There are some, uh, uh, sports drinks, 90 00:05:19,370 --> 00:05:22,550 so you can stay hydrated and get your electrolytes. 91 00:05:22,580 --> 00:05:24,100 A- assorted snacks. 92 00:05:24,130 --> 00:05:25,720 Dammit, he's early. 93 00:05:26,650 --> 00:05:30,480 Gift basket, with, uh, well, supplies 94 00:05:30,520 --> 00:05:33,490 for the next 36 hours, it's in the bathroom. 95 00:05:33,520 --> 00:05:36,630 [chuckles] I didn't wanna presume what you needed, 96 00:05:36,660 --> 00:05:38,320 so feel free to toss anything 97 00:05:38,350 --> 00:05:40,560 that doesn't look like it would work. 98 00:05:40,600 --> 00:05:42,910 There are some collection condoms in there, 99 00:05:42,940 --> 00:05:46,640 uh, silicone, since latex can be harmful to sperm, 100 00:05:46,670 --> 00:05:50,850 as well as some sterile collection cups to help you, 101 00:05:50,880 --> 00:05:53,540 well, to help with all three 102 00:05:53,580 --> 00:05:55,160 of your scheduled donations- - Okay, no. 103 00:05:55,200 --> 00:05:58,240 - And to make them as comfortable as possible. 104 00:05:58,270 --> 00:06:01,070 [razor buzzing] 105 00:06:01,100 --> 00:06:03,590 [razor thuds] 106 00:06:05,000 --> 00:06:07,560 I know you've been keeping up with the research, 107 00:06:07,590 --> 00:06:10,140 and, and prep timeline I sent earlier, 108 00:06:10,180 --> 00:06:14,180 but if you needed some boxers to help regulate 109 00:06:14,220 --> 00:06:18,700 the temperature down there, [chuckles] after your flight, 110 00:06:18,740 --> 00:06:22,710 I've provided a special thank-you pair. 111 00:06:22,740 --> 00:06:26,330 I know it's ideal to do this over the course of four days, 112 00:06:26,370 --> 00:06:29,720 or at least 48 hours, but in terms of budget 113 00:06:29,750 --> 00:06:32,370 and not taking for granted your time, 114 00:06:32,410 --> 00:06:33,510 I think we can make the best 115 00:06:33,550 --> 00:06:36,790 of this day and a half together, before you fly home. 116 00:06:36,830 --> 00:06:39,860 Okay, lastly, there is some paperwork 117 00:06:39,900 --> 00:06:42,420 for you to sign, the release and waiver, 118 00:06:42,450 --> 00:06:45,840 along with just a pre, uh, questionnaire. 119 00:06:47,770 --> 00:06:50,150 Uh, when you're done, just give a knock 120 00:06:50,180 --> 00:06:51,570 and slide them under the door, 121 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:54,260 and we'll get started shortly. 122 00:06:54,290 --> 00:06:55,120 - Right. 123 00:07:01,780 --> 00:07:02,580 [pen clicks] 124 00:07:02,610 --> 00:07:03,610 All right. 125 00:07:03,650 --> 00:07:06,820 "Known sperm donor and recipient agreement." 126 00:07:06,860 --> 00:07:09,790 Uh, "Donor has agreed donor will produce, 127 00:07:09,820 --> 00:07:10,890 donor agrees. 128 00:07:12,240 --> 00:07:14,730 Donor agrees. Donor is aware." 129 00:07:15,690 --> 00:07:18,210 [Ben mutters faintly] 130 00:07:18,250 --> 00:07:23,220 [object clicking] [objects clattering] 131 00:07:25,290 --> 00:07:27,810 Okay, donor... [gentle airy music] 132 00:07:27,840 --> 00:07:30,570 [pen scratching] 133 00:07:33,710 --> 00:07:35,130 That should be... 134 00:07:38,230 --> 00:07:40,820 "Personal health questionnaire." 135 00:07:40,860 --> 00:07:42,340 "Donor name." Ben. 136 00:07:44,550 --> 00:07:48,550 "Have you ejaculated in the past 72 hours?" Nope. 137 00:07:49,730 --> 00:07:53,940 "Have you consumed asparagus in the past 72 hours?" 138 00:07:55,420 --> 00:07:56,420 That's a no. 139 00:07:57,320 --> 00:08:00,080 "Have you spent any time in a jacuzzi or hot personal bath?" 140 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:01,290 No. 141 00:08:01,320 --> 00:08:04,740 [gentle airy music] 142 00:08:04,780 --> 00:08:06,290 "Have you had a headache, fever or cough?" 143 00:08:06,330 --> 00:08:07,540 Oh, no. No, no. 144 00:08:08,810 --> 00:08:10,750 "Have you spent time in jail?" No. 145 00:08:10,780 --> 00:08:15,030 "Have you had unprotected sex?" [mutters] 146 00:08:15,060 --> 00:08:17,440 "Are there medical concerns not mentioned in this screening 147 00:08:17,480 --> 00:08:21,480 you would like, or feel important, to disclose?" 148 00:08:24,350 --> 00:08:25,350 No. No, huh. 149 00:08:26,690 --> 00:08:29,630 "Affix your STD and sperm motility test results 150 00:08:29,660 --> 00:08:31,080 to the top of this questionnaire 151 00:08:31,110 --> 00:08:33,630 with the paperclip provided." 152 00:08:33,670 --> 00:08:36,640 [gentle airy music] 153 00:08:45,130 --> 00:08:47,200 "Put it to the top, 154 00:08:47,230 --> 00:08:49,890 with the paperclip p- provided." 155 00:08:52,340 --> 00:08:55,310 "With the paperclip provided." 156 00:08:55,340 --> 00:08:58,350 [gentle airy music] 157 00:08:59,970 --> 00:09:01,730 [objects clattering] 158 00:09:01,760 --> 00:09:04,730 [gentle airy music] 159 00:09:06,150 --> 00:09:08,150 [Ben panting] 160 00:09:08,180 --> 00:09:11,010 [Ben groans] 161 00:09:11,050 --> 00:09:11,880 - Oh, God. 162 00:09:15,230 --> 00:09:16,880 Oh. 163 00:09:16,920 --> 00:09:20,130 [gentle airy music] 164 00:09:20,160 --> 00:09:21,990 - [Ben] Not there? No. 165 00:09:22,890 --> 00:09:25,370 [Ben panting] 166 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:28,410 [gentle airy music] 167 00:09:28,450 --> 00:09:29,270 - Oh! 168 00:09:31,830 --> 00:09:34,240 [Fran sighs] 169 00:09:34,280 --> 00:09:36,870 - It's gotta be here somewhere. 170 00:09:36,900 --> 00:09:38,420 All right, here we go. 171 00:09:38,460 --> 00:09:43,460 [gentle airy music] [Ben panting] 172 00:09:44,740 --> 00:09:45,880 [knuckles rapping] 173 00:09:45,910 --> 00:09:48,740 [object clatters] 174 00:09:50,850 --> 00:09:52,920 [Fran sniffles and sighs] 175 00:09:52,950 --> 00:09:53,990 Sorry, there, 176 00:09:55,020 --> 00:09:57,820 there w- there wasn't a paperclip. 177 00:09:58,820 --> 00:09:59,890 [sirens wailing] [bright music] 178 00:09:59,930 --> 00:10:02,240 [gentle airy music] 179 00:10:02,270 --> 00:10:07,170 - Uh, uh, uh, no problem, not a problem. Uh, my fault. 180 00:10:07,210 --> 00:10:10,180 Um, just go ahead and, uh- 181 00:10:10,210 --> 00:10:11,770 - Just shove it in? 182 00:10:14,250 --> 00:10:15,420 Through? - Yes, that, 183 00:10:15,460 --> 00:10:17,600 that sounds great. - I can just shove it through. 184 00:10:17,630 --> 00:10:19,530 [gentle airy music] 185 00:10:19,570 --> 00:10:20,880 I'm sorry. - No. 186 00:10:23,220 --> 00:10:26,540 - [Ben] Okay. [groans] 187 00:10:26,570 --> 00:10:28,680 I just, um, I can't get the paper- 188 00:10:28,710 --> 00:10:29,780 - Ah-ha. 189 00:10:29,820 --> 00:10:31,580 - Take it. Goddamn it. 190 00:10:31,610 --> 00:10:35,100 [gentle airy music] Goddamn it. 191 00:10:35,130 --> 00:10:38,100 [gentle airy music] 192 00:10:39,280 --> 00:10:42,800 [knuckles rapping] [door clicks] 193 00:10:42,830 --> 00:10:43,620 [door thuds] 194 00:10:43,660 --> 00:10:44,760 Hey! Hey, Franny. 195 00:10:44,800 --> 00:10:47,180 - [sighs] It's, it's just Fran now. 196 00:10:47,210 --> 00:10:49,870 - Oh. Oh, sorry, so- I am so sorry. 197 00:10:49,910 --> 00:10:51,110 I am so sorry. 198 00:10:51,150 --> 00:10:52,430 - That's- - Sorry. 199 00:10:52,460 --> 00:10:54,980 [Fran chuckles] 200 00:10:55,020 --> 00:10:57,570 Well, in regards to me, I'm, I'm still just Ben. 201 00:10:57,600 --> 00:10:59,020 - Yeah, right. 202 00:10:59,050 --> 00:11:01,160 - Like I was before. - Yeah. 203 00:11:01,190 --> 00:11:02,190 Yeah, I'll take- 204 00:11:02,230 --> 00:11:03,750 - It's good, it's good to see you. 205 00:11:03,780 --> 00:11:05,680 - Yeah, you too. I- I was actually going for- 206 00:11:05,720 --> 00:11:07,060 - Oh, this guy. - Yeah. 207 00:11:07,100 --> 00:11:08,720 - Sorry, it's- 208 00:11:08,750 --> 00:11:09,860 - That was fast. 209 00:11:09,890 --> 00:11:11,240 - Yeah, well, I- I've always been kinda quick 210 00:11:11,270 --> 00:11:12,900 with worksheets, you know? 211 00:11:12,930 --> 00:11:14,450 - Yeah. - Like I was back in school. 212 00:11:14,480 --> 00:11:16,860 - [Fran] Yeah, I- I remember. 213 00:11:18,870 --> 00:11:19,730 - [Ben] Oh. 214 00:11:22,350 --> 00:11:24,110 - Were you crying? 215 00:11:24,150 --> 00:11:25,840 - Crying? No. - Are you sad? 216 00:11:25,870 --> 00:11:26,670 It, it's okay 217 00:11:26,700 --> 00:11:27,530 if you were, I just- - It's just, no, 218 00:11:27,560 --> 00:11:28,630 I appreciate you asking. - Okay, okay. 219 00:11:28,670 --> 00:11:30,220 - No, I'm fine. It's just- - I didn't mean to, I- 220 00:11:30,260 --> 00:11:31,090 - I'm, I'm good. - Okay. 221 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:31,910 Okay, I'm glad. - I'm good. 222 00:11:31,950 --> 00:11:32,920 I'm good. I'm good. 223 00:11:32,950 --> 00:11:35,090 It's just- - Is everything all right? 224 00:11:35,120 --> 00:11:36,090 - Yeah. - Yeah? Okay. 225 00:11:36,130 --> 00:11:37,200 - [Ben] Yeah, it's, it's good. 226 00:11:37,230 --> 00:11:38,370 - Good. - Yeah, it's, 227 00:11:38,400 --> 00:11:39,400 and this is so good. 228 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:40,750 Everything you've done is just so good. 229 00:11:40,790 --> 00:11:43,510 It's really, this is, I love this. 230 00:11:43,550 --> 00:11:45,100 [Fran chuckles] [Ben exclaims] 231 00:11:45,130 --> 00:11:46,340 [liquid glugging] 232 00:11:46,380 --> 00:11:51,140 - Oh, wow. You're thirsty. [gasps] 233 00:11:51,170 --> 00:11:53,940 - [gasps] That's good stuff. 234 00:11:53,970 --> 00:11:57,490 Yeah, it's just contacts. Sorry, that was so loud. 235 00:11:57,530 --> 00:11:59,530 It's, it's like when you talk with someone 236 00:11:59,560 --> 00:12:00,810 and they still have their headphones on, 237 00:12:00,840 --> 00:12:01,880 you know, like the gymer. 238 00:12:01,910 --> 00:12:03,390 "What? No, no, sorry. 239 00:12:03,430 --> 00:12:04,670 You know, I, you need the elliptical? 240 00:12:04,710 --> 00:12:08,360 I'm all set. I'm all set!" [exclaims] 241 00:12:08,400 --> 00:12:09,230 Can I have a? 242 00:12:09,260 --> 00:12:10,190 - Yeah. - It's just, 243 00:12:10,230 --> 00:12:11,950 it's a low-impact machine. 244 00:12:11,990 --> 00:12:15,030 - Right, I- I use those. - Yeah, yeah. 245 00:12:18,410 --> 00:12:21,240 It's just my contacts, they're just acting up. 246 00:12:21,270 --> 00:12:23,100 It's all it is. 247 00:12:23,140 --> 00:12:25,930 [liquid glugging] 248 00:12:27,040 --> 00:12:28,280 - Yeah, okay. 249 00:12:28,320 --> 00:12:30,140 - Sorry, I'm, I'm, I'm just nervous. 250 00:12:30,180 --> 00:12:31,080 - It's okay. It's okay. 251 00:12:31,110 --> 00:12:32,010 - I'm okay. 252 00:12:34,940 --> 00:12:36,840 I'm good. I'm good. 253 00:12:36,880 --> 00:12:39,120 - Should we get started? - Yeah. Yeah. 254 00:12:39,150 --> 00:12:40,290 This is great. 255 00:12:40,330 --> 00:12:43,300 - So the first donation is probably the most important- 256 00:12:43,330 --> 00:12:44,230 - Yeah. - As it will be 257 00:12:44,260 --> 00:12:47,580 the most concentrated sample due to the, 258 00:12:49,030 --> 00:12:50,680 due to your, uh- 259 00:12:50,720 --> 00:12:52,790 - Oh, my, um, sabbatical. 260 00:12:54,480 --> 00:12:58,480 [Ben imitates closing suitcase] 261 00:13:00,870 --> 00:13:05,560 - [exclaims] Yeah! Yeah, due to that. [inhales sharply] 262 00:13:05,590 --> 00:13:06,970 - I can just, uh, 263 00:13:08,530 --> 00:13:11,120 get these on and, uh, go to it. 264 00:13:12,740 --> 00:13:16,050 - Sure, uh, just, you know, knock. 265 00:13:16,090 --> 00:13:17,050 [knuckles rapping] - Like that? 266 00:13:17,090 --> 00:13:17,990 - Yeah, like that. 267 00:13:18,020 --> 00:13:18,810 - Okay, I'll see you soon. - Okay. 268 00:13:18,850 --> 00:13:19,880 Yeah. Bye-bye. - Bye-bye. 269 00:13:19,920 --> 00:13:22,470 [door thuds] 270 00:13:22,510 --> 00:13:27,480 [gentle airy music] [Ben exhales deeply] 271 00:13:34,450 --> 00:13:36,900 [Fran sighs] [hands tapping] 272 00:13:36,940 --> 00:13:40,770 [gentle airy music continues] 273 00:13:43,420 --> 00:13:48,400 [device beeps] [gentle upbeat music] 274 00:13:50,640 --> 00:13:53,430 [Fran sighs] 275 00:13:53,470 --> 00:13:56,090 ♪ Send a picture, babe ♪ 276 00:13:56,130 --> 00:13:58,580 ♪ Quarter after 3:00 ♪ 277 00:13:58,610 --> 00:14:01,510 ♪ Tell me what you ♪ 278 00:14:01,550 --> 00:14:03,550 ♪ Wanna do to me ♪ 279 00:14:03,580 --> 00:14:06,450 ♪ I'm your dream girl ♪ 280 00:14:06,480 --> 00:14:08,350 ♪ Hazy in your mind ♪ [Fran clicks tongue] 281 00:14:08,380 --> 00:14:10,870 ♪ Baby, you fit into me ♪ 282 00:14:10,900 --> 00:14:13,970 ♪ Like a hook into an eye ♪ 283 00:14:14,010 --> 00:14:16,940 ♪ Let's have an understanding ♪ 284 00:14:16,980 --> 00:14:18,530 ♪ Let's play pretend ♪ 285 00:14:18,560 --> 00:14:21,430 ♪ I don't need to see your edges ♪ 286 00:14:21,460 --> 00:14:24,160 ♪ Or your complicated bits ♪ 287 00:14:24,190 --> 00:14:27,050 ♪ Let's have an understanding ♪ 288 00:14:27,090 --> 00:14:28,500 ♪ Let's play pretend ♪ [Fran panting] 289 00:14:28,540 --> 00:14:31,090 ♪ We never really see each other ♪ 290 00:14:31,130 --> 00:14:32,300 [vibrator thuds] ♪ 'Cause the glow's ♪ 291 00:14:32,340 --> 00:14:33,510 ♪ Where we live ♪ 292 00:14:33,540 --> 00:14:35,990 [vibrator thudding] ♪ I'm never gonna call it love ♪ 293 00:14:36,030 --> 00:14:38,580 ♪ I'm never gonna open up ♪ 294 00:14:38,620 --> 00:14:40,480 ♪ I'm never gonna let you ♪ - No. 295 00:14:40,520 --> 00:14:42,040 ♪ Closer than this ♪ 296 00:14:42,070 --> 00:14:43,550 ♪ Closer than this ♪ 297 00:14:43,590 --> 00:14:46,070 ♪ I'm never gonna be the one ♪ 298 00:14:46,110 --> 00:14:47,450 ♪ So quit it with the real stuff ♪ 299 00:14:47,490 --> 00:14:48,660 [Fran sighs] 300 00:14:48,700 --> 00:14:51,910 ♪ I'm never gonna let you closer than this ♪ 301 00:14:51,940 --> 00:14:54,050 ♪ Closer than this ♪ 302 00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:59,050 [vocalist harmonizing] [Fran exhales sharply] 303 00:14:59,400 --> 00:15:02,260 [vibrator clatters] 304 00:15:02,300 --> 00:15:03,880 [vibrator thuds] [door thuds] 305 00:15:03,920 --> 00:15:08,920 [vocalist harmonizing] [gentle upbeat music] 306 00:15:12,380 --> 00:15:14,520 - "No smoking. No candles." 307 00:15:14,550 --> 00:15:16,860 ♪ Gimme what I want ♪ 308 00:15:16,900 --> 00:15:18,930 [Fran sighs] ♪ This is how it works ♪ 309 00:15:18,970 --> 00:15:21,870 [lighter clicking] ♪ You don't get to know me ♪ 310 00:15:21,900 --> 00:15:22,700 ♪ You don't get ♪ - Whatever! 311 00:15:22,730 --> 00:15:24,730 ♪ To hurt me first ♪ 312 00:15:24,770 --> 00:15:26,940 ♪ Let's have an understanding ♪ 313 00:15:26,980 --> 00:15:29,390 [Fran sighs] ♪ Let's play pretend ♪ 314 00:15:29,430 --> 00:15:30,360 ♪ I don't care ♪ 315 00:15:30,390 --> 00:15:32,290 ♪ About your sister ♪ - Okay. [sighs] 316 00:15:32,330 --> 00:15:34,920 ♪ Or your band from Michigan ♪ [Fran gasps] 317 00:15:34,950 --> 00:15:37,680 ♪ Let's have an understanding ♪ [Fran sniffs] 318 00:15:37,710 --> 00:15:39,130 ♪ Let's play pretend ♪ 319 00:15:39,160 --> 00:15:40,370 - Oh my God. ♪ We never really ♪ 320 00:15:40,400 --> 00:15:41,750 ♪ See each other ♪ 321 00:15:41,780 --> 00:15:43,750 ♪ 'Cause the glow's where we live ♪ 322 00:15:43,790 --> 00:15:45,890 [knuckles rapping] ♪ I'm never gonna call it love ♪ 323 00:15:45,930 --> 00:15:49,270 - [gasps] Okay. ♪ I'm never gonna open up ♪ 324 00:15:49,310 --> 00:15:54,280 ♪ I'm never gonna ♪ [device beeps] 325 00:15:54,590 --> 00:15:56,350 [hands tap] - Okay. 326 00:15:56,390 --> 00:15:57,940 Way to go, Big Ben. 327 00:16:01,180 --> 00:16:02,150 [door thuds] 328 00:16:02,180 --> 00:16:04,080 [Ben sighs] 329 00:16:04,120 --> 00:16:08,190 - Sorry, some, some, something's just not working. 330 00:16:08,220 --> 00:16:09,050 It's. 331 00:16:10,850 --> 00:16:12,190 I- I- I'm so- - I- 332 00:16:12,230 --> 00:16:13,680 [container clattering] 333 00:16:13,710 --> 00:16:15,130 - It's okay, it's ju- it's, it's fine. 334 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:16,580 It, it's empty. 335 00:16:16,610 --> 00:16:17,750 [Fran gasping] It didn't spill. 336 00:16:17,790 --> 00:16:21,380 Fran, I- I- I didn't, it, there's nothing in it. 337 00:16:21,410 --> 00:16:22,200 No. - Okay. 338 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:23,070 [door thuds] 339 00:16:23,100 --> 00:16:26,100 [quirky upbeat music] [gasping] Okay. 340 00:16:26,140 --> 00:16:29,970 [Fran whimpering and gasping] 341 00:16:32,490 --> 00:16:33,910 [Ben's voice distorting] 342 00:16:33,940 --> 00:16:34,840 Okay. Okay. 343 00:16:35,770 --> 00:16:36,980 [vibrator clattering] 344 00:16:37,010 --> 00:16:39,910 [Fran gasping] [quirky music warbling] 345 00:16:39,950 --> 00:16:41,640 [Fran whimpers] [rousing dramatic music] 346 00:16:41,670 --> 00:16:44,020 [knuckles rapping] 347 00:16:44,050 --> 00:16:46,190 - [Ben] Hey, Fr- Fran? 348 00:16:46,230 --> 00:16:47,020 - God! 349 00:16:49,090 --> 00:16:50,540 Yes? [gasping] 350 00:16:50,580 --> 00:16:53,650 - Hey. [Fran panting] 351 00:16:57,000 --> 00:16:58,830 Listen, ju- let's just wait, wait for a minute. 352 00:16:58,860 --> 00:17:02,730 I mean, uh. [Fran sighing] 353 00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:04,450 [gentle airy music] 354 00:17:04,490 --> 00:17:07,900 Look, I'm, I'm not demanding or like, 355 00:17:07,940 --> 00:17:11,700 like telling you what you gotta do, okay, I... 356 00:17:13,700 --> 00:17:18,290 But I- I- I do feel that it's important to share that, 357 00:17:18,330 --> 00:17:21,820 that though I know that this is not ideal, 358 00:17:22,920 --> 00:17:24,440 I think that we are, 359 00:17:24,470 --> 00:17:26,060 you know, i- ideally suited to adjust 360 00:17:26,100 --> 00:17:28,680 to this becau- 'cause you, 361 00:17:28,720 --> 00:17:30,340 'cause you've done a lot of har- hard work, 362 00:17:30,380 --> 00:17:33,170 hard, hard work and, and I have read 363 00:17:33,210 --> 00:17:34,550 or watched everything you sent me, 364 00:17:34,590 --> 00:17:37,040 so- sometimes twice. 365 00:17:37,070 --> 00:17:40,870 You know, so all that prep work is really gonna help us, 366 00:17:40,900 --> 00:17:43,600 you know, ad- adjust to what, what is really 367 00:17:43,630 --> 00:17:47,050 only a, a, a temporary setback here. 368 00:17:47,080 --> 00:17:50,220 [gentle somber music] 369 00:17:51,530 --> 00:17:53,230 Hey, and, and just to review the facts, 370 00:17:53,260 --> 00:17:55,850 you know, I- I've eaten folate-rich foods 371 00:17:55,880 --> 00:17:58,650 for like months now, and I have done, 372 00:17:58,680 --> 00:18:01,410 or, or, or not done everything that was in the packet 373 00:18:01,440 --> 00:18:03,030 in those videos and, and, and even 374 00:18:03,060 --> 00:18:05,410 those two podcast episodes you sent. 375 00:18:05,450 --> 00:18:06,450 And you know, we've only been here 376 00:18:06,480 --> 00:18:08,450 for like, like 30 minutes. 377 00:18:08,480 --> 00:18:11,420 So despite the window being really tight, I- I know, 378 00:18:11,450 --> 00:18:13,490 but maybe we could take the pressure off 379 00:18:13,520 --> 00:18:15,520 and, and try to do this right, 380 00:18:15,560 --> 00:18:19,080 or, or, or well, you know, rather than rushed. 381 00:18:19,110 --> 00:18:24,120 [gentle somber music] [Fran panting] 382 00:18:25,810 --> 00:18:27,260 And also a quick update. 383 00:18:27,290 --> 00:18:30,880 Uh, I think I'm gonna change into my other shorts. 384 00:18:30,920 --> 00:18:33,580 Uh, they're still loose-fitting and, and, and breathable. 385 00:18:33,610 --> 00:18:34,850 It's just that, 386 00:18:36,550 --> 00:18:38,270 it's just the backside of the embroidered 387 00:18:38,310 --> 00:18:39,790 Thank you uniform, 388 00:18:43,830 --> 00:18:46,830 it's, it's, it's just really scratchy. 389 00:18:46,870 --> 00:18:49,010 And, and I- I think that, 390 00:18:49,040 --> 00:18:50,420 compiled with how nervous I am, 391 00:18:50,460 --> 00:18:52,150 and wanting to do this really, really well, 392 00:18:52,180 --> 00:18:54,770 is all contributing to just how 393 00:18:56,630 --> 00:18:59,530 aloof, uh, aloof, a- aloof, you know, 394 00:18:59,570 --> 00:19:03,330 e- e- e- e- everything's acting down there. 395 00:19:03,370 --> 00:19:04,920 [Fran laughs] 396 00:19:04,950 --> 00:19:08,680 [gentle bright somber music] 397 00:19:09,850 --> 00:19:11,200 Fran? 398 00:19:11,240 --> 00:19:14,380 [gentle somber music] 399 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:26,250 [gentle somber music continues] 400 00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:27,110 Okay. 401 00:19:28,700 --> 00:19:30,220 [Ben sighs] 402 00:19:30,250 --> 00:19:31,190 [door clicks] 403 00:19:31,220 --> 00:19:32,190 - [Fran] Oh! 404 00:19:33,710 --> 00:19:34,530 - Oh. 405 00:19:37,640 --> 00:19:39,850 [panting] Hey, did you, fun fact, 406 00:19:39,880 --> 00:19:41,680 did you know that, uh, Margaret Vickers 407 00:19:41,710 --> 00:19:42,510 was the first girl- 408 00:19:42,540 --> 00:19:44,370 - Oh? - Uh, to, to see me naked? 409 00:19:44,410 --> 00:19:45,440 - From high school? 410 00:19:45,480 --> 00:19:47,790 - Yeah, uh, the one that was in the class below us? 411 00:19:47,820 --> 00:19:49,030 I mean, my mom and my grandma, you know, 412 00:19:49,070 --> 00:19:51,030 they used to bathe me in our, our kitchen sink 413 00:19:51,070 --> 00:19:52,660 when, when I was a baby and all the relatives 414 00:19:52,690 --> 00:19:53,620 would come in and say- - Ben? Ben? 415 00:19:53,660 --> 00:19:54,450 - "Nice kitchen." - Ben? 416 00:19:54,490 --> 00:19:55,280 - Good- - Ben, can you fix 417 00:19:55,310 --> 00:19:56,310 your situation? 418 00:19:56,350 --> 00:19:57,560 - Yeah. - Please. 419 00:19:57,590 --> 00:19:58,730 Okay. 420 00:19:58,770 --> 00:20:00,770 - Yeah. [sighs] 421 00:20:00,800 --> 00:20:01,630 It's, uh. 422 00:20:05,430 --> 00:20:07,910 [Ben gasping] 423 00:20:12,020 --> 00:20:13,260 All set. 424 00:20:13,300 --> 00:20:16,130 Yeah, so it's, it's, you know, it's just the novelty 425 00:20:16,160 --> 00:20:17,580 of it all, being the first grandkid, 426 00:20:17,610 --> 00:20:18,820 and so it's just this spectacle, 427 00:20:18,850 --> 00:20:22,100 so it doesn't really count, but yeah, 428 00:20:22,130 --> 00:20:25,590 that Margaret Vickers, she's the one. 429 00:20:25,620 --> 00:20:26,760 - Wasn't she autistic? 430 00:20:26,790 --> 00:20:30,140 - Still is, or, well, or, or something going on there. 431 00:20:30,180 --> 00:20:31,070 You know, it wasn't really polite 432 00:20:31,110 --> 00:20:33,590 to ask back in the '90s. 433 00:20:33,630 --> 00:20:36,150 I mean, now everyone's just deciding that they're, 434 00:20:36,180 --> 00:20:38,360 "Hey, TikTok, it's me, your neurodivergent unicorn," 435 00:20:38,390 --> 00:20:40,120 glitter, glitter, glitter. 436 00:20:40,150 --> 00:20:43,360 But not really putting in any work. 437 00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:44,780 You know, but, uh, back then 438 00:20:44,810 --> 00:20:47,500 I- I was always working out early, 439 00:20:47,540 --> 00:20:50,680 uh, for wrestling practice and... 440 00:20:50,710 --> 00:20:51,920 See, I had a hard time making weight 441 00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:53,960 on account of my slow metabolism. 442 00:20:53,990 --> 00:20:56,550 Wait, i- is that gonna be a problem, my, my slow metabolism? 443 00:20:56,580 --> 00:20:58,650 - Oh, Ben, it's fine. There's so many good things about you. 444 00:20:58,690 --> 00:21:01,210 Metabolism isn't really... 445 00:21:01,240 --> 00:21:02,790 - Uh, you know, some, some of it's in, in my head. 446 00:21:02,830 --> 00:21:04,900 Like, I have these persistent, "I'm just always gonna be 447 00:21:04,930 --> 00:21:06,700 so husky," thoughts. - I- I- I- I can deal 448 00:21:06,730 --> 00:21:07,560 with metabolism. - If you need 449 00:21:07,590 --> 00:21:09,210 to get somebody else, I understand. 450 00:21:09,250 --> 00:21:10,460 - Ben? 451 00:21:10,490 --> 00:21:15,010 I can handle a whole hell of a lot, and you are not a lot. 452 00:21:15,050 --> 00:21:15,980 Hm. 453 00:21:16,010 --> 00:21:16,840 - You're? 454 00:21:23,300 --> 00:21:24,130 Should I? 455 00:21:25,090 --> 00:21:29,750 What, do you, do you still wanna hear my nudey story? 456 00:21:29,790 --> 00:21:30,650 [Fran exhales deeply] 457 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:32,030 You, well, I'm like a junior 458 00:21:32,070 --> 00:21:33,480 and I'm running before school a lot, 459 00:21:33,520 --> 00:21:35,210 and, uh, I'm, I'm not really covering up 460 00:21:35,240 --> 00:21:37,760 when I walk from the shower to my locker, 461 00:21:37,800 --> 00:21:40,350 and Margaret Vickers, she walks in to the locker room 462 00:21:40,380 --> 00:21:41,660 looking for Coach Russo, 463 00:21:41,700 --> 00:21:43,490 and, and sees me, bam! 464 00:21:44,530 --> 00:21:47,220 You know, full raw chicken there. 465 00:21:47,250 --> 00:21:51,530 You know, me, you know, but not so slim shady. 466 00:21:51,570 --> 00:21:53,050 Well, referencing my waist, you know, 467 00:21:53,090 --> 00:21:55,640 n- nothing in regards to girth. 468 00:21:57,920 --> 00:21:59,300 And her eyes get real big 469 00:21:59,330 --> 00:22:01,990 and, and she just runs out, crying. 470 00:22:02,030 --> 00:22:04,820 Coach Russo, he found her later by the dodge balls. 471 00:22:04,860 --> 00:22:06,720 He tried to keep it real hush-hush, you know? 472 00:22:06,760 --> 00:22:07,550 But Jeremy Metzker- 473 00:22:07,580 --> 00:22:09,930 - Oh! God, Jeremy Metzker? 474 00:22:09,970 --> 00:22:12,140 - Yeah. Yeah, and that guy? - Ugh. 475 00:22:12,170 --> 00:22:13,210 - Well, he found out. 476 00:22:13,240 --> 00:22:15,560 And, and so he announced to the entire lunchroom 477 00:22:15,590 --> 00:22:18,150 that my genitals made Margaret Vickers cry. 478 00:22:18,180 --> 00:22:20,040 And, and, and then he got the entire lunchroom 479 00:22:20,080 --> 00:22:22,700 to stand up and slow clap, like the end of a football movie. 480 00:22:22,740 --> 00:22:24,460 [hands clapping] 481 00:22:24,500 --> 00:22:27,090 And she just looked, but she just runs out weeping. 482 00:22:27,120 --> 00:22:28,810 - I- I don't remember that. 483 00:22:28,850 --> 00:22:30,430 That must have been terrible. 484 00:22:30,470 --> 00:22:34,230 - No, it, it, it was, it was fine. She was... 485 00:22:35,920 --> 00:22:38,200 Well, you know, I mean, it, it's hard to tell 486 00:22:38,230 --> 00:22:43,030 if the weeping was on account of the clapping or my penis. 487 00:22:45,690 --> 00:22:48,730 I've always kinda leaned penis. 488 00:22:48,760 --> 00:22:49,590 - Huh! 489 00:22:50,520 --> 00:22:52,490 - But she, I mean, she was fine. 490 00:22:52,530 --> 00:22:54,910 I mean, she asked me to prom later that spring, you know? 491 00:22:54,940 --> 00:22:57,840 - Oh, yeah, I- [sighs] I forgot that you two, 492 00:22:57,880 --> 00:23:00,290 a, no, after we, um, yeah. 493 00:23:00,330 --> 00:23:02,190 - And see, her mom, she, she wanted her home 494 00:23:02,220 --> 00:23:05,470 by like 9:30, so we danced every dance we could, 495 00:23:05,500 --> 00:23:08,990 and then I, well, I- I took her back, 496 00:23:09,020 --> 00:23:13,270 and then I just went home and just skipped the rest. 497 00:23:14,550 --> 00:23:17,480 So Margaret Vickers was like the first non-family member 498 00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:19,240 to see me au naturel. 499 00:23:20,830 --> 00:23:21,930 - Oh. 500 00:23:21,970 --> 00:23:26,140 - Then there was a considerable gap till somebody. 501 00:23:26,180 --> 00:23:28,180 Just a few years. A few. 502 00:23:31,430 --> 00:23:32,700 Eight. 503 00:23:32,740 --> 00:23:34,390 - Eight? - Yeah. 504 00:23:34,430 --> 00:23:35,740 - Oh! Oh, eight. 505 00:23:37,740 --> 00:23:41,230 - Well, some people call me a late bloomer. [chuckles] 506 00:23:41,260 --> 00:23:42,090 What, moi? 507 00:23:45,850 --> 00:23:47,130 Maurice. - Yeah. 508 00:23:47,170 --> 00:23:48,440 - It's Steve Miller. 509 00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:50,620 Gosh, sorry, I'm always doing these bad impressions. 510 00:23:50,650 --> 00:23:52,310 I'm so bad at them. It's Steve Miller. 511 00:23:52,340 --> 00:23:54,690 And I'm just like grasping for these different things 512 00:23:54,730 --> 00:23:56,380 to try to make sense of what's going on. 513 00:23:56,420 --> 00:23:58,250 And it doesn't make any sense. 514 00:23:58,280 --> 00:23:59,140 That was my Steve Miller. 515 00:23:59,180 --> 00:24:00,520 - I, yeah, I remember. 516 00:24:00,560 --> 00:24:02,010 - The song or like how I am? 517 00:24:02,040 --> 00:24:02,870 - Both. 518 00:24:03,730 --> 00:24:04,530 - Oh. 519 00:24:07,190 --> 00:24:10,430 [Ben chuckles] 520 00:24:10,470 --> 00:24:12,740 But then you, you know, were, were like 521 00:24:12,780 --> 00:24:16,260 almost the first person to see me 522 00:24:16,300 --> 00:24:17,850 in like three or four years, 523 00:24:17,890 --> 00:24:19,610 uh, but, but with an asterisk going, 524 00:24:19,650 --> 00:24:21,230 'cause we were saved by this T-shirt I got 525 00:24:21,270 --> 00:24:23,930 from running a 5K during one of my, you know, 526 00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:25,100 self-improvement kicks. 527 00:24:25,130 --> 00:24:27,070 So I guess it's a good thing I lost all that weight 528 00:24:27,100 --> 00:24:29,380 and then put some back on, then lost it, put back. 529 00:24:29,410 --> 00:24:32,760 [vocalizing] and then [vocalizing]. 530 00:24:32,800 --> 00:24:36,870 You know? Just, uh. [sighs] 531 00:24:36,910 --> 00:24:39,180 So do you, do you wanna, like, talk about, like, next steps? 532 00:24:39,220 --> 00:24:40,460 - [gasps] Yes! - Okay. 533 00:24:40,500 --> 00:24:41,390 [Fran exclaims] 534 00:24:41,430 --> 00:24:42,840 Oh, okay. 535 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:45,980 [bright upbeat music] 536 00:24:54,410 --> 00:24:58,410 [bright upbeat music continues] 537 00:25:01,690 --> 00:25:04,310 Thanks for, uh, meeting with me today. [chuckles] 538 00:25:04,350 --> 00:25:06,900 - Thanks for meeting with me too. 539 00:25:06,940 --> 00:25:10,250 - Hey! Hey, you, you, you got this, huh? 540 00:25:11,660 --> 00:25:14,150 I'm sorry, you, we, we got it. 541 00:25:17,570 --> 00:25:22,300 - Okay, so refractory-wise, we still have a window, 542 00:25:22,330 --> 00:25:25,370 kind of, to make our three goals. 543 00:25:25,400 --> 00:25:29,370 But if we aren't able to, in the next hour, 544 00:25:29,410 --> 00:25:31,960 we can roll back to two 545 00:25:31,990 --> 00:25:35,580 [sighs] deposits, 546 00:25:35,620 --> 00:25:37,410 as an adaptive schedule and still get you 547 00:25:37,450 --> 00:25:39,800 to your flight on time. 548 00:25:39,830 --> 00:25:42,140 It'd be tight, but enough time. 549 00:25:42,180 --> 00:25:43,700 I gave us a day and a half to allow 550 00:25:43,730 --> 00:25:45,460 for the unexpected, um... 551 00:25:45,490 --> 00:25:46,700 - Uh, contingencies? 552 00:25:46,730 --> 00:25:47,980 - Exactly. 553 00:25:48,010 --> 00:25:50,600 - Uh, quality over quantity. 554 00:25:50,630 --> 00:25:54,470 - Uh, more quality quantity, is what we're aiming for, 555 00:25:54,500 --> 00:25:56,160 but, but yeah, yeah. 556 00:25:58,230 --> 00:26:02,270 - Oh, um, my, my, my doctor, he gave me some, um, 557 00:26:03,540 --> 00:26:05,550 generic helpers. 558 00:26:05,580 --> 00:26:07,170 [vocalist humming] [quirky bright music] 559 00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:09,310 You know, in case? 560 00:26:09,340 --> 00:26:11,140 - Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. Take that now. 561 00:26:11,170 --> 00:26:15,900 [vocalist humming] [quirky bright music] 562 00:26:15,940 --> 00:26:17,040 [pills rattling] 563 00:26:17,070 --> 00:26:18,390 - Got 'em! 564 00:26:18,420 --> 00:26:19,420 [vocalist humming] [quirky bright music] 565 00:26:19,460 --> 00:26:21,250 [pill bottle clattering] 566 00:26:21,290 --> 00:26:22,460 I got. I got. 567 00:26:22,490 --> 00:26:23,290 - Is everything all right? 568 00:26:23,320 --> 00:26:25,080 - Got it. - Oh, okay. 569 00:26:26,150 --> 00:26:28,670 Ben? Oh! [Ben coughs] 570 00:26:28,710 --> 00:26:31,260 [Ben exclaims] 571 00:26:31,300 --> 00:26:32,920 - It just went down the wrong, 572 00:26:32,950 --> 00:26:34,190 it just went down the wrong pipe. 573 00:26:34,230 --> 00:26:35,780 - Okay. - I have a, 574 00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:39,580 I have a somewhat lazy epiglottis. 575 00:26:39,610 --> 00:26:40,680 - Oh! - It's, it's a condition, 576 00:26:40,720 --> 00:26:42,200 not a critique, it's. [gulps] 577 00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:44,310 - Yeah. - Just do the best you can. 578 00:26:44,340 --> 00:26:45,550 - [Fran] Take your time, maybe stop drinking 579 00:26:45,590 --> 00:26:46,690 for a little bit. 580 00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:48,550 [slow bright music] [vocalist humming] 581 00:26:48,590 --> 00:26:51,000 [chair creaks] [gentle dramatic music] 582 00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:53,730 - [coughs] Yeah, but it should work. 583 00:26:53,770 --> 00:26:55,800 [panting] I mean, I tested it, but a while back, 584 00:26:55,840 --> 00:27:00,080 it's not, uh, like, ruin the sabbatical, so. 585 00:27:00,120 --> 00:27:01,050 - Good. 586 00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:04,220 - I'm just not sure if that's, 587 00:27:04,260 --> 00:27:07,060 I'm not sure if that's really the issue, 588 00:27:07,090 --> 00:27:08,820 uh, right now. 589 00:27:08,850 --> 00:27:10,510 [gentle bright upbeat music] 590 00:27:10,540 --> 00:27:13,160 - Okay. Uh, is it the magazines? 591 00:27:15,340 --> 00:27:16,480 - No! - Be- because if it's 592 00:27:16,510 --> 00:27:18,690 a special type of, uh, media, 593 00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:20,970 this is a no-judgment zone, Ben, we got this. 594 00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:21,790 Okay? - No, those are, 595 00:27:21,830 --> 00:27:22,860 they're, they're fine. 596 00:27:22,900 --> 00:27:26,490 Yeah, I mean, I know that can elicit, you know, 597 00:27:26,520 --> 00:27:29,110 like initiate a, a physiological response, 598 00:27:29,150 --> 00:27:30,290 but no, this is, you know, 599 00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:32,770 maybe just something more going on up here 600 00:27:32,810 --> 00:27:37,780 that's getting in the way of this working. [panting] 601 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:41,540 - Is it like sleep-related or, or stressed? 602 00:27:41,570 --> 00:27:43,640 - Maybe some, some. I mean, I have a CPAP machine. 603 00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:45,160 I'm a little young for it, but uh. 604 00:27:45,200 --> 00:27:48,060 - Do you need to use that? 605 00:27:48,100 --> 00:27:50,270 - No, I- I'm not tired. 606 00:27:50,310 --> 00:27:51,550 And besides, I didn't, I didn't bring it, 607 00:27:51,580 --> 00:27:53,100 I didn't want it to get ruined at the airport, 608 00:27:53,140 --> 00:27:54,760 or look like one of those guys, you know, 609 00:27:54,790 --> 00:27:57,450 sporting a gray, soft-sided cooler, 610 00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:59,380 full of their personal yogurts, 611 00:27:59,420 --> 00:28:02,560 and struggling to get it in the overhead bin, so. 612 00:28:02,590 --> 00:28:04,010 - Are you stressed? 613 00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:05,150 - Yeah, but I- I don't think stress 614 00:28:05,180 --> 00:28:07,810 is like the, the real deal with. 615 00:28:09,390 --> 00:28:10,980 - No. - Even when I'm home, 616 00:28:11,020 --> 00:28:13,090 you know? [quirky upbeat music] 617 00:28:13,120 --> 00:28:14,710 Like, uh, you know? 618 00:28:17,190 --> 00:28:21,060 Like, uh, using, using the self checkout aisle. 619 00:28:21,990 --> 00:28:22,860 - Yeah. - If I'm stressed 620 00:28:22,890 --> 00:28:24,410 everything kinda works out, so. 621 00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:25,690 - Gotcha. - I don't, 622 00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:30,620 I- I think we're, we, we should be good here, or, or there. 623 00:28:30,660 --> 00:28:31,690 - Great. - You know, it's, 624 00:28:31,730 --> 00:28:34,310 it's probably most likely like a mental thing, 625 00:28:34,350 --> 00:28:35,520 than something like biological. 626 00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:36,800 Hey, I mean, I'm a late bloomer, 627 00:28:36,830 --> 00:28:38,870 so I- I got a lot in the tank, so. 628 00:28:38,910 --> 00:28:41,220 - Ben, Ben, hey, let's just, 629 00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,260 let's just sit here and, and breathe and calm down, 630 00:28:46,290 --> 00:28:50,400 and we'll, we'll, uh. [panting] 631 00:28:50,430 --> 00:28:52,540 [quirky upbeat music] 632 00:28:52,570 --> 00:28:53,890 Is there something I can do to help? 633 00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:56,300 - No, you're doing great. [coughs] 634 00:28:56,340 --> 00:28:57,340 - Okay. 635 00:28:57,370 --> 00:29:00,760 - Oh, well, could I have another one of these? 636 00:29:00,790 --> 00:29:01,860 - Sure, sure. 637 00:29:03,310 --> 00:29:05,830 Ben, what has helped? 638 00:29:05,860 --> 00:29:07,690 Well, I mean, what do you think would help? 639 00:29:07,730 --> 00:29:10,280 What has helped to get you, uh. 640 00:29:11,770 --> 00:29:14,290 - Like, past the finish line? 641 00:29:14,320 --> 00:29:19,290 [bottle creaking] [water glugging] 642 00:29:20,190 --> 00:29:23,020 - Okay, take a breath. Just for a second, take a breath. 643 00:29:23,050 --> 00:29:24,710 [bottle creaking] 644 00:29:24,740 --> 00:29:27,330 [Ben grunting] 645 00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:31,920 [Ben clears throat and sniffles] 646 00:29:31,960 --> 00:29:34,060 Okay. [clears throat] 647 00:29:34,100 --> 00:29:37,270 [soft gentle bright music] 648 00:29:37,310 --> 00:29:39,140 How can I help you right now? 649 00:29:39,170 --> 00:29:42,310 [gentle bright music] 650 00:29:43,210 --> 00:29:44,320 [bright somber music] 651 00:29:44,350 --> 00:29:46,010 - Oh, Fran, no, I... 652 00:29:48,660 --> 00:29:52,810 You have worked s- so hard to create a safe space, 653 00:29:52,840 --> 00:29:56,160 ensuring, you know, that everyone feels comfortable 654 00:29:56,190 --> 00:29:57,810 during a, a difficult process, 655 00:29:57,850 --> 00:30:00,920 and, and I don't think we should just throw away 656 00:30:00,950 --> 00:30:02,160 those boundaries so easily, 657 00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:03,890 'cause I- I respect you. - Oh! I am not, no- 658 00:30:03,920 --> 00:30:05,680 - And you are a- - Ben, I am, I am not. 659 00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:08,890 Ben, stop talking for a second because I'm not an idiot, 660 00:30:08,930 --> 00:30:10,100 and I'm not compromising 661 00:30:10,130 --> 00:30:11,520 this deeply personal- - I didn't mean to- 662 00:30:11,550 --> 00:30:13,410 - And urgent process by suggesting giving you 663 00:30:13,450 --> 00:30:16,350 some sort of sympathetic hand-job! 664 00:30:16,380 --> 00:30:18,320 - That's not exactly- - And oh, let me reassert 665 00:30:18,350 --> 00:30:19,870 that I am not fucking stupid, 666 00:30:19,900 --> 00:30:23,150 so snap out of it and meet me right here, right here, 667 00:30:23,180 --> 00:30:24,460 and tell me what it is we need to do 668 00:30:24,490 --> 00:30:27,740 to get this started so we can get this done. 669 00:30:27,770 --> 00:30:30,220 Now, whatever the issue is, 670 00:30:30,260 --> 00:30:32,050 we have about a, hmm, let's see, 671 00:30:32,090 --> 00:30:33,430 a, a day and some change to see 672 00:30:33,470 --> 00:30:35,060 if this is insurmountable, 673 00:30:35,090 --> 00:30:37,920 or something that we can surmount. 674 00:30:38,820 --> 00:30:41,990 And that process should have started like 20 minutes ago. 675 00:30:42,030 --> 00:30:45,000 Okay? So let's knuckle down. 676 00:30:45,030 --> 00:30:47,210 Okay. I want this to be a safe space. 677 00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:50,110 I do, but we also need it to be a get-it-fucking-done space, 678 00:30:50,140 --> 00:30:51,070 so I'd like to invite you 679 00:30:51,110 --> 00:30:53,870 to put your late Gen X'er big boy shorts on 680 00:30:53,900 --> 00:30:56,320 and get after this, because we're old enough, Ben. 681 00:30:56,350 --> 00:30:58,360 We're old enough, we should be able to do that. 682 00:30:58,390 --> 00:30:59,250 Okay? 683 00:30:59,290 --> 00:31:02,260 So talk me through what the block is 684 00:31:03,740 --> 00:31:05,880 and we'll work through it. 685 00:31:07,780 --> 00:31:09,920 This is your turn to talk. 686 00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:12,960 Is it the porn? 687 00:31:12,990 --> 00:31:14,650 Did I get the wrong porn? 688 00:31:14,680 --> 00:31:18,380 - Can I use the middle aged man's room? 689 00:31:18,410 --> 00:31:19,480 - Sure. Sure. 690 00:31:21,270 --> 00:31:23,830 [pen rattling] 691 00:31:24,730 --> 00:31:25,660 - I guess it's a good thing we know 692 00:31:25,690 --> 00:31:28,900 that I'm like super hydrated right now. 693 00:31:32,420 --> 00:31:35,190 [Ben vocalizing] 694 00:31:37,740 --> 00:31:39,020 [urine sloshing] 695 00:31:39,050 --> 00:31:41,230 [Fran sniffles] 696 00:31:41,260 --> 00:31:43,990 [pen clicking] 697 00:31:44,020 --> 00:31:47,580 [urine continues sloshing] 698 00:31:55,720 --> 00:31:57,000 [Fran gasps] 699 00:31:57,030 --> 00:32:00,620 [urine continues sloshing] 700 00:32:08,840 --> 00:32:12,770 [urine continues sloshing] 701 00:32:12,810 --> 00:32:15,230 [Fran sighs] 702 00:32:19,750 --> 00:32:22,470 [urine sloshing] 703 00:32:30,270 --> 00:32:31,790 [pen clicking] 704 00:32:31,830 --> 00:32:34,310 [urine continues sloshing] 705 00:32:34,350 --> 00:32:37,280 [Fran sighing] 706 00:32:37,320 --> 00:32:40,870 [urine continues sloshing] 707 00:32:50,500 --> 00:32:53,330 [toilet flushing] 708 00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:56,750 - [Fran] Wash your hands! 709 00:32:56,780 --> 00:32:57,960 - I was gonna! 710 00:33:00,030 --> 00:33:01,580 [water sloshing] 711 00:33:01,620 --> 00:33:02,690 [dish clatters] 712 00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:03,760 [soap thuds] 713 00:33:03,790 --> 00:33:06,900 [dishes clattering] 714 00:33:06,930 --> 00:33:08,000 [soap thuds] 715 00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:13,010 [Ben gasping] [water continues sloshing] 716 00:33:16,670 --> 00:33:19,630 [soap thuds] [water continues sloshing] 717 00:33:19,670 --> 00:33:22,150 [Ben sighing] 718 00:33:28,850 --> 00:33:31,820 Do you wanna smell f- for, like, the soap or? 719 00:33:31,850 --> 00:33:33,170 - We're all set. 720 00:33:35,170 --> 00:33:38,720 You know, let's just, let's just shake it off. 721 00:33:38,760 --> 00:33:39,900 - Like Taylor Swift? - No, no, no, no. 722 00:33:39,930 --> 00:33:42,380 Like, like, like shake the Etch A Sketch. 723 00:33:42,420 --> 00:33:44,070 - Oh, the- - Movement 724 00:33:44,110 --> 00:33:47,460 releases endorphins and lowers anxiety. 725 00:33:47,490 --> 00:33:49,840 I'm gonna play some music 726 00:33:49,870 --> 00:33:51,080 and we can just, you know- - My plantar fasciitis 727 00:33:51,110 --> 00:33:52,150 has, has been acting up- 728 00:33:52,180 --> 00:33:52,980 - Stand- - So- 729 00:33:53,010 --> 00:33:54,600 - And move our bodies. 730 00:33:54,630 --> 00:33:56,020 - If there's gonna be any jumping involved, 731 00:33:56,050 --> 00:33:57,400 I- I- - No, no, no talking! 732 00:33:57,430 --> 00:33:58,220 - I might have to tap out. 733 00:33:58,260 --> 00:33:59,230 - Just, just breathing, 734 00:33:59,260 --> 00:34:00,090 you know, getting into our body. 735 00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:01,430 - Is this yoga? 736 00:34:01,470 --> 00:34:03,540 - Ben, this is not yoga! 737 00:34:03,570 --> 00:34:04,890 We are winging it here. 738 00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:08,270 We are inventing something new altogether here, okay? 739 00:34:08,300 --> 00:34:10,170 So get up! Yes, get up! 740 00:34:11,410 --> 00:34:13,790 [device beeping] ♪ Feel me ♪ 741 00:34:13,830 --> 00:34:15,350 [gentle upbeat music] 742 00:34:15,380 --> 00:34:18,590 ♪ I'm an angel for you ♪ 743 00:34:20,420 --> 00:34:23,390 - Yeah, shimmy, move your shoulders. 744 00:34:24,250 --> 00:34:25,180 That's good. 745 00:34:25,220 --> 00:34:30,290 ♪ Time for you to move ♪ [Fran gasping] 746 00:34:30,330 --> 00:34:32,670 ♪ Time to go, go, go, go ♪ 747 00:34:32,710 --> 00:34:36,440 [Fran babbling and groaning] 748 00:34:37,610 --> 00:34:40,650 [gentle upbeat music] 749 00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:41,990 - Looks like you should be outside 750 00:34:42,030 --> 00:34:43,170 a cellphone store. - Shut up. 751 00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:45,100 Start, start dancing. 752 00:34:45,130 --> 00:34:47,580 - Promoting a car wash. - Don't distract. 753 00:34:47,620 --> 00:34:49,000 [Fran laughs] [Ben laughs] 754 00:34:49,030 --> 00:34:50,520 ♪ Coming, coming through ♪ - I can dance. 755 00:34:50,550 --> 00:34:51,480 - Yeah? - Yeah. 756 00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:52,900 - Lemme see you. 757 00:34:52,930 --> 00:34:54,830 - Put on my dancing sandals. 758 00:34:54,870 --> 00:34:56,460 - Okay, you need those? Good job. 759 00:34:56,490 --> 00:34:59,220 - Have to sleep in a boot with a right angle. 760 00:34:59,250 --> 00:35:01,120 - Well, sexy. 761 00:35:01,150 --> 00:35:02,980 - 'Cause I have plantar fasciitis. 762 00:35:03,010 --> 00:35:03,910 [Fran sighs] 763 00:35:03,950 --> 00:35:05,500 It may be bone spurs. 764 00:35:05,530 --> 00:35:06,430 - Ah-ha. - But I'm hoping 765 00:35:06,470 --> 00:35:08,330 it's plantar fasciitis. 766 00:35:08,360 --> 00:35:10,020 - Ah-ha. Yeah, yeah. 767 00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:12,470 - It's like I'm a weather system. 768 00:35:12,510 --> 00:35:13,540 - Yeah, you are. 769 00:35:13,580 --> 00:35:15,540 - Cue this nimbus cloud. [exclaims] 770 00:35:15,580 --> 00:35:17,230 - Wild weather system. 771 00:35:17,270 --> 00:35:19,030 - Stratus, stratus. 772 00:35:19,060 --> 00:35:19,960 - Fog, fog. 773 00:35:21,170 --> 00:35:22,270 - Cirrus cloud. 774 00:35:22,310 --> 00:35:23,650 - Lightning, lightning, lightning! 775 00:35:23,690 --> 00:35:25,280 - And thunder. - Lightning. 776 00:35:25,310 --> 00:35:26,730 And thunder, thunder, thunder. 777 00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:28,590 - Salsa, salsa, salsa. 778 00:35:29,830 --> 00:35:30,970 A little pico de gallo. 779 00:35:31,010 --> 00:35:32,560 - Yeah, pico de gallo. 780 00:35:32,590 --> 00:35:33,700 - It's mild though. 781 00:35:33,730 --> 00:35:35,290 - Yeah. - You don't wanna hurt 782 00:35:35,320 --> 00:35:36,810 your tummy. 783 00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:37,840 - Lifeguard. 784 00:35:38,980 --> 00:35:41,120 - You look like you're doing some vocational dance move. 785 00:35:41,160 --> 00:35:42,600 - [Fran] Oh yeah. 786 00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:43,990 - I'm moving like the jobs I always wanted- 787 00:35:44,020 --> 00:35:45,370 - Oh yeah? - When I was a kid. 788 00:35:45,400 --> 00:35:46,190 [Ben groans] - Yeah. 789 00:35:46,230 --> 00:35:47,640 - I work at an apple orchard. 790 00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:48,680 - Yeah. - I love it. 791 00:35:48,710 --> 00:35:50,090 Pumpkin spice. 792 00:35:50,130 --> 00:35:51,720 Just taking out the recycling. 793 00:35:51,750 --> 00:35:53,200 - Yeah. - Oh, it's the wrong day. 794 00:35:53,240 --> 00:35:54,380 My bad. 795 00:35:54,410 --> 00:35:55,620 [gentle upbeat music] ♪ Think I've had enough ♪ 796 00:35:55,650 --> 00:35:56,480 ♪ Had enough ♪ 797 00:35:56,520 --> 00:35:57,340 - And I'm a florist. 798 00:35:57,380 --> 00:35:59,100 - Spray, spray. 799 00:35:59,140 --> 00:36:00,860 Spray, spray. - Here you go. 800 00:36:00,900 --> 00:36:02,730 Window wiping. [groaning] 801 00:36:02,760 --> 00:36:03,830 [lively upbeat music] ♪ Coming, coming, coming ♪ 802 00:36:03,870 --> 00:36:05,490 - Seal petting. Petting. 803 00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:07,770 ♪ Coming, coming, coming ♪ 804 00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:09,390 - Think I'm a dolphin. 805 00:36:09,420 --> 00:36:11,940 [grunts] Cobra. Cobra! 806 00:36:11,980 --> 00:36:12,980 [lively upbeat music] ♪ Coming, coming, coming ♪ 807 00:36:13,010 --> 00:36:15,500 ♪ Coming, coming, coming, coming, coming ♪ 808 00:36:15,530 --> 00:36:18,190 [Ben exclaims] [Fran gasps] 809 00:36:18,230 --> 00:36:19,950 - [Ben] Pulling me in. 810 00:36:19,990 --> 00:36:23,990 [lively upbeat music continues] 811 00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:29,890 - Lightning, lightning. 812 00:36:29,930 --> 00:36:31,900 - Jazzing, jazzing. 813 00:36:31,930 --> 00:36:35,210 [Fran sighs and gasps] 814 00:36:37,940 --> 00:36:41,220 - Let's get outta here. Clear our heads. 815 00:36:48,330 --> 00:36:53,300 [door sensor chiming] [soft upbeat music] 816 00:37:00,890 --> 00:37:05,860 [potato chips crunching] [bags rustling] 817 00:37:06,170 --> 00:37:08,030 - I'm sorry, I- I- I was gonna send a card, 818 00:37:08,070 --> 00:37:09,830 but I- I just didn't. 819 00:37:12,630 --> 00:37:14,040 I'm really sorry. 820 00:37:15,900 --> 00:37:17,800 - I- I was meaning too. 821 00:37:20,770 --> 00:37:23,670 Yeah, I'm, I'm so sorry about Lana, 822 00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:25,810 and your folks. 823 00:37:26,880 --> 00:37:31,820 - Yeah, you too. Your mom. [sighs] 824 00:37:31,850 --> 00:37:34,270 [soft upbeat music] 825 00:37:34,300 --> 00:37:37,030 - Kept picturing it like Miley Cyrus riding 826 00:37:37,060 --> 00:37:38,720 that big styrofoam ball in her underwear. 827 00:37:38,760 --> 00:37:39,860 - Mm-hmm. 828 00:37:39,890 --> 00:37:43,550 ♪ I came in like a large cell carcinoma ball ♪ 829 00:37:43,590 --> 00:37:45,140 Like that? - Mm-hmm. 830 00:37:47,490 --> 00:37:51,110 - Is that why you moved home? Your mom? 831 00:37:51,150 --> 00:37:53,080 - Yeah. It's temporary. 832 00:37:54,050 --> 00:37:57,840 I'll head back to Chicago after I sell our house, 833 00:37:57,880 --> 00:38:00,950 but it is weird being back in Toledo. 834 00:38:02,120 --> 00:38:04,130 [soft upbeat music] 835 00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:06,270 - It's kinda nice. 836 00:38:06,300 --> 00:38:07,130 - Yeah. 837 00:38:10,130 --> 00:38:10,960 - Why me? 838 00:38:12,860 --> 00:38:16,280 I mean, why'd you even choose me? 839 00:38:16,310 --> 00:38:21,280 - Honestly, I couldn't think of anyone else I could trust. 840 00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:22,900 - I was like the weirdest friend you had in high school. 841 00:38:22,940 --> 00:38:25,800 - Eclectic and creative and unique. 842 00:38:26,980 --> 00:38:28,810 - And who swam in a T-shirt. 843 00:38:28,840 --> 00:38:32,330 - I just had a feeling you'd get it and be game and kind. 844 00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:33,150 - Hm. 845 00:38:34,090 --> 00:38:37,120 - If I get to have a child, I'd hope they'd be like that. 846 00:38:37,160 --> 00:38:40,510 - A lone wolf who swims in a T-shirt and is good at trivia? 847 00:38:40,540 --> 00:38:43,540 - And who would also understand why I'm doing it this way. 848 00:38:43,580 --> 00:38:45,720 After Mom, it's expensive. 849 00:38:46,820 --> 00:38:49,550 I have one shot at this, so I'm being, you know, 850 00:38:49,580 --> 00:38:52,070 creative with this first part. 851 00:38:53,040 --> 00:38:56,940 But I'm wondering, is this too soon after Lana? 852 00:38:58,590 --> 00:39:00,560 - You mean not being able to? 853 00:39:00,600 --> 00:39:02,390 - Well, that'd be understandable. 854 00:39:02,430 --> 00:39:05,010 - No, it, it hasn't been too... 855 00:39:06,220 --> 00:39:08,360 I mean, maybe, I don't know. [clears throat] 856 00:39:08,400 --> 00:39:09,290 Or maybe I'm just kinda messed up 857 00:39:09,330 --> 00:39:10,990 from getting such a late start, you know? 858 00:39:11,020 --> 00:39:12,330 - Yeah. - I mean, 859 00:39:12,370 --> 00:39:14,130 the closest thing I ever had to having a sex talk 860 00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:17,990 with my folks was finding my dad's cassette tape 861 00:39:18,030 --> 00:39:19,370 of Meatloaf's Greatest Hits, you know? 862 00:39:19,410 --> 00:39:21,550 So my whole understanding of any kinda intimacy 863 00:39:21,580 --> 00:39:26,000 is dominated by a very problematic sexual baseball metaphor. 864 00:39:26,030 --> 00:39:27,210 - Yeah. 865 00:39:27,240 --> 00:39:31,010 - Hell, and the odd single with a sympathetic coworker, 866 00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:32,800 accidental doubles around New Year's 867 00:39:32,830 --> 00:39:36,220 when people are optimistically desperate. 868 00:39:37,910 --> 00:39:41,220 That almost triple with Gina from Cleveland. 869 00:39:41,260 --> 00:39:43,330 You wouldn't know her. 870 00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:45,780 - I once laughed in a guy's mouth when he kissed me. 871 00:39:45,810 --> 00:39:47,300 [Ben laughs] Yeah. 872 00:39:47,330 --> 00:39:49,820 It was at the end of a nice date, a real fancy guy. 873 00:39:49,850 --> 00:39:50,650 - Oh. - He was walking me 874 00:39:50,680 --> 00:39:52,060 to my door. - Mm-hmm. 875 00:39:52,100 --> 00:39:53,580 - And his Audi's parked out front, 876 00:39:53,610 --> 00:39:54,650 so, you know, fancy. - Nice. 877 00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:56,100 - And he is saying all the right things, 878 00:39:56,130 --> 00:39:58,690 and he's smelling good and he's looking all the right ways, 879 00:39:58,720 --> 00:40:00,480 and I'm like, "Shit, why not?" 880 00:40:00,520 --> 00:40:01,350 So I'm giving him all 881 00:40:01,380 --> 00:40:02,590 the, the signs, you know? - Oh, the, 882 00:40:02,620 --> 00:40:04,000 the sexual baseball metaphor. 883 00:40:04,040 --> 00:40:08,320 - And the dude comes in and just [exclaims] gold fishes me. 884 00:40:08,350 --> 00:40:11,050 His, his big, like, dumb lips. 885 00:40:11,080 --> 00:40:14,430 - Oh, like a, like a space lock in a science fiction movie? 886 00:40:14,460 --> 00:40:16,220 [Ben vocalizing] 887 00:40:16,260 --> 00:40:18,160 - Yes, like, like a Dementor. 888 00:40:18,190 --> 00:40:19,330 - Oh yeah. 889 00:40:19,360 --> 00:40:20,260 - Have you read Harry Potter? 890 00:40:20,300 --> 00:40:21,330 - Yeah, I love those books. 891 00:40:21,370 --> 00:40:22,950 I mean, I mean, I- I know they're problematic, 892 00:40:22,990 --> 00:40:24,990 but I- I used to, I used to love 893 00:40:25,020 --> 00:40:26,090 those books. - Yeah, yeah, 894 00:40:26,130 --> 00:40:27,480 problematic and I don't don't know if they hold up, 895 00:40:27,510 --> 00:40:30,550 or if it's just nostalgia or something. 896 00:40:30,580 --> 00:40:33,830 - Um, they're a little calm A, calm B. 897 00:40:33,860 --> 00:40:35,590 - But anyway, this Dementor is like trying 898 00:40:35,620 --> 00:40:38,620 to suck out my soul, and I- I feel... 899 00:40:38,660 --> 00:40:42,150 - Like a, like a hawk going after a small mammal 900 00:40:42,180 --> 00:40:44,290 on the side of the, the highway, [imitates hawk screeching] 901 00:40:44,320 --> 00:40:45,360 and it's just ripping it apart. 902 00:40:45,390 --> 00:40:46,940 - God! - Like that? 903 00:40:46,980 --> 00:40:48,630 - [chuckles] Alarmingly, yes. 904 00:40:48,670 --> 00:40:49,600 - Nice. 905 00:40:49,640 --> 00:40:53,290 - And I just lose it just right in his face. 906 00:40:54,570 --> 00:40:58,060 I guess I wanted him to feel unwanted. 907 00:40:58,090 --> 00:41:01,060 - Well, a bad kiss is a bad kiss, man. 908 00:41:01,100 --> 00:41:03,200 - Yeah, right? - Yeah. 909 00:41:03,240 --> 00:41:04,720 - It's just. 910 00:41:04,750 --> 00:41:07,480 [device chiming] 911 00:41:15,590 --> 00:41:18,250 [air whooshing] 912 00:41:20,010 --> 00:41:21,810 - I will shut my door, 913 00:41:24,120 --> 00:41:25,220 just so. 914 00:41:25,260 --> 00:41:27,500 The lights will remain off. 915 00:41:28,540 --> 00:41:31,820 You will count audibly on your side of the door to 20, 916 00:41:31,850 --> 00:41:34,540 while I set an ambush up on mine. 917 00:41:34,580 --> 00:41:35,580 - Got it. 918 00:41:35,610 --> 00:41:37,820 - Now you'll proceed into my room, 919 00:41:37,860 --> 00:41:39,270 lights still off, 920 00:41:39,310 --> 00:41:41,550 and try to survive this game we just invented. 921 00:41:41,580 --> 00:41:43,900 Uh, we can call it, um, uh. 922 00:41:43,930 --> 00:41:45,900 [toy gun clicks] 923 00:41:45,930 --> 00:41:47,040 - Night Hunt. 924 00:41:48,040 --> 00:41:50,870 - Nice. Now you'll have three bullets. 925 00:41:50,900 --> 00:41:53,420 - Only gonna need one. 926 00:41:53,460 --> 00:41:55,980 - Be that as it may, if you find any foam darts 927 00:41:56,010 --> 00:41:57,980 on the ground, you may reuse them, 928 00:41:58,010 --> 00:42:00,430 providing you're not already dead. 929 00:42:00,460 --> 00:42:01,780 - Do you need to use the restroom? 930 00:42:01,810 --> 00:42:02,950 - [Ben] Why? 931 00:42:02,980 --> 00:42:04,330 - Remember, hide-and-seek, and the moment you hide 932 00:42:04,370 --> 00:42:07,020 you get nervous and have to pee? 933 00:42:09,720 --> 00:42:11,920 [Fran exhaling sharply] 934 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:14,760 [urine splashing] 935 00:42:15,830 --> 00:42:18,480 [toilet flushing] 936 00:42:18,520 --> 00:42:19,480 Wash your hands! 937 00:42:19,520 --> 00:42:20,690 - I was gonna! 938 00:42:20,730 --> 00:42:22,280 - Just making sure. 939 00:42:22,310 --> 00:42:25,140 [water sloshing] 940 00:42:25,180 --> 00:42:27,560 [Fran sighs] 941 00:42:30,430 --> 00:42:31,630 [toy gun clicks] 942 00:42:31,670 --> 00:42:33,980 [slow suspenseful music] 943 00:42:34,020 --> 00:42:35,880 [door creaks] 944 00:42:35,910 --> 00:42:37,330 - Start counting. 945 00:42:38,260 --> 00:42:39,710 - One, two, three. 946 00:42:44,340 --> 00:42:45,540 - This direction. 947 00:42:45,580 --> 00:42:46,750 - [Fran] Four. 948 00:42:46,790 --> 00:42:49,760 [Ben exhales deeply] Five. 949 00:42:49,790 --> 00:42:51,790 - Ah! Cramp, oh, my- 950 00:42:51,830 --> 00:42:53,170 - [Fran] Six. 951 00:42:53,210 --> 00:42:54,550 - Can walk for- 952 00:42:54,590 --> 00:42:55,380 - Seven, 953 00:42:57,800 --> 00:43:00,460 eight, nine, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 954 00:43:01,490 --> 00:43:03,080 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 955 00:43:07,430 --> 00:43:11,090 20. [slow suspenseful music] 956 00:43:19,510 --> 00:43:23,720 [slow suspenseful music continues] 957 00:43:32,180 --> 00:43:33,350 [slow suspenseful music continues] 958 00:43:33,390 --> 00:43:35,910 [Fran gasps] 959 00:43:35,940 --> 00:43:40,150 [slow suspenseful music continues] 960 00:43:42,600 --> 00:43:45,600 [curtain rattles] 961 00:43:45,640 --> 00:43:49,880 [slow suspenseful music continues] 962 00:43:57,960 --> 00:43:59,310 [slow suspenseful music continues] 963 00:43:59,340 --> 00:44:00,240 Hello, Ben. 964 00:44:02,170 --> 00:44:03,100 [dart thuds] - Oh! 965 00:44:03,140 --> 00:44:04,660 Oh! - Ooh. Shit! 966 00:44:04,690 --> 00:44:06,140 - Uh, that's okay. No, no, you j- 967 00:44:06,180 --> 00:44:07,070 - Are you all right? - Yeah, you just, 968 00:44:07,110 --> 00:44:08,110 you just got me in the, 969 00:44:08,140 --> 00:44:09,040 you just got me- - In the eye? 970 00:44:09,080 --> 00:44:09,940 Oh my God, Ben, 971 00:44:09,970 --> 00:44:10,770 I'm so sorry. - I'm okay, it's fine. 972 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:11,980 That, that was awesome. 973 00:44:12,010 --> 00:44:13,600 [stammers] It, it's really, it's just a foam dart. 974 00:44:13,630 --> 00:44:16,010 - No, no. It, it still could detach a cornea. 975 00:44:16,050 --> 00:44:17,330 - What? - Yeah. Can you see me? 976 00:44:17,360 --> 00:44:18,640 - Yeah. Loud, loud and clear. 977 00:44:18,670 --> 00:44:22,710 - Oh. Oh, Ben, I'm so sorry I ruined your game. 978 00:44:22,750 --> 00:44:24,470 - You, you won our game. 979 00:44:24,510 --> 00:44:26,160 Our game. You won our game. 980 00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:27,850 That, that was awesome. 981 00:44:27,890 --> 00:44:31,750 You, you're like a, like, like a gun fighter. 982 00:44:31,790 --> 00:44:36,760 You're like, like some kinda Wolf Warrior Franny. [groans] 983 00:44:36,790 --> 00:44:38,170 That was awesome. 984 00:44:39,280 --> 00:44:40,620 - Here. - Ah. 985 00:44:40,660 --> 00:44:41,940 - Do you want me to blow on it? 986 00:44:41,970 --> 00:44:43,250 - What? 987 00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:45,250 - Oh, my grandma used to do it when we got poked in the eye. 988 00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:46,910 I think it helps. 989 00:44:46,940 --> 00:44:47,800 Yeah. Okay. 990 00:44:49,010 --> 00:44:50,320 [Fran blowing] 991 00:44:50,360 --> 00:44:54,950 [gentle bright poignant music] 992 00:44:54,980 --> 00:44:56,680 Is that better? 993 00:44:56,710 --> 00:45:00,610 [gentle bright poignant music] 994 00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:02,750 Okay. 995 00:45:04,230 --> 00:45:08,270 [gentle bright poignant music continues] 996 00:45:08,310 --> 00:45:10,070 You want something to drink? 997 00:45:10,100 --> 00:45:12,730 [paper rustling] 998 00:45:12,760 --> 00:45:14,870 - Yeah, like, like a beer? 999 00:45:17,830 --> 00:45:20,420 - [Fran] Yeah, I can do a beer. 1000 00:45:21,460 --> 00:45:24,460 [traffic whooshing] 1001 00:45:25,740 --> 00:45:28,290 [soft music] [vocalist singing faintly] 1002 00:45:28,330 --> 00:45:31,370 - Ah, and then these. I'm just gonna. 1003 00:45:33,370 --> 00:45:38,340 [soft music] [vocalist singing faintly] 1004 00:45:40,890 --> 00:45:43,170 Hey, you know, we could, um, 1005 00:45:48,520 --> 00:45:52,180 do you remem, do you remember [sighs] 1006 00:45:52,210 --> 00:45:54,490 the Honor Society trip? 1007 00:45:54,530 --> 00:45:56,320 You know, in the hotel, when I asked you to prom 1008 00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:57,810 with all the histrionics? 1009 00:45:57,840 --> 00:45:59,770 My, mine, not yours. 1010 00:45:59,810 --> 00:46:03,190 And you said, "Maybe," and then you said, "Yes." 1011 00:46:03,220 --> 00:46:04,850 And then you stayed home from school for like a week, 1012 00:46:04,880 --> 00:46:06,230 'cause you were so sick with worry. 1013 00:46:06,260 --> 00:46:07,090 And then you came back 1014 00:46:07,130 --> 00:46:09,370 and said you needed it to be a "No." 1015 00:46:09,400 --> 00:46:11,610 - I, uh. - It, it's not a shame parade. 1016 00:46:11,650 --> 00:46:13,550 I just, I just thought, 1017 00:46:14,650 --> 00:46:18,900 well, hey, we got all this stuff and we can, 1018 00:46:18,930 --> 00:46:21,590 I don't know, we, we could like, 1019 00:46:22,970 --> 00:46:25,700 like redeem the whole prom thing. 1020 00:46:26,870 --> 00:46:30,360 [soft music] [vocalist singing faintly] 1021 00:46:30,390 --> 00:46:31,220 Hm. 1022 00:46:33,740 --> 00:46:35,600 Well, we're on the right track. 1023 00:46:35,640 --> 00:46:36,600 - Call to fight evil? 1024 00:46:36,640 --> 00:46:38,290 - Well, it's more like right or wrong. 1025 00:46:38,330 --> 00:46:39,950 Again, mine, not yours. 1026 00:46:39,990 --> 00:46:42,090 - I'm the one- [Ben clicks tongue] 1027 00:46:42,130 --> 00:46:43,160 - It's 11:11. 1028 00:46:45,060 --> 00:46:45,890 So, uh? 1029 00:46:49,550 --> 00:46:52,480 [plastic rustling] 1030 00:46:54,620 --> 00:46:56,800 [items thudding] 1031 00:46:56,830 --> 00:47:01,250 [slow suspenseful music] [device chiming] 1032 00:47:01,280 --> 00:47:05,600 [quirky suspenseful music] [girl giggling] 1033 00:47:05,630 --> 00:47:08,810 [lively upbeat music] 1034 00:47:17,330 --> 00:47:21,300 [lively upbeat music continues] 1035 00:47:23,720 --> 00:47:25,340 [balloon pops and hisses] 1036 00:47:25,380 --> 00:47:29,830 ♪ Cold sweats in the night ♪ 1037 00:47:29,860 --> 00:47:33,040 ♪ And I'm drenched ♪ 1038 00:47:33,070 --> 00:47:35,590 - You were so ahead of your time. 1039 00:47:35,630 --> 00:47:39,910 Kids these days, is their spectacle asking out prom dates? 1040 00:47:39,940 --> 00:47:44,390 - Oh no, no, those kids? Those kids lack courage. 1041 00:47:44,430 --> 00:47:45,460 Yeah, they, they can't even ask 1042 00:47:45,500 --> 00:47:47,850 in an intentional sentence with, with more 1043 00:47:47,880 --> 00:47:48,920 than one syllable. 1044 00:47:48,950 --> 00:47:50,780 Prom? Question mark. 1045 00:47:50,810 --> 00:47:55,300 No, uh, that's a, that's a pseudo attempt, you know? 1046 00:47:55,340 --> 00:47:57,680 Made out of fear of actually having to have 1047 00:47:57,720 --> 00:48:00,070 a meaningful, reciprocal conversation. 1048 00:48:00,100 --> 00:48:02,930 No, no, I mean, that's solely manufactured 1049 00:48:02,970 --> 00:48:07,140 to be documented for some perceived social capital. 1050 00:48:09,390 --> 00:48:11,770 There's, there's no kindness. 1051 00:48:13,010 --> 00:48:15,490 No, there's no elegant pursuit 1052 00:48:16,460 --> 00:48:18,980 that makes another person feel seen 1053 00:48:19,020 --> 00:48:21,500 or, you know, wanted or known. 1054 00:48:24,950 --> 00:48:28,200 No, it's just some saccharine extension 1055 00:48:29,060 --> 00:48:31,440 of the one-sided placebo form 1056 00:48:33,370 --> 00:48:35,170 of faux communication. 1057 00:48:37,380 --> 00:48:38,790 I'm sorry, sorry. 1058 00:48:40,310 --> 00:48:42,520 - It was kind of an ambush. 1059 00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:44,830 ♪ Tale as old as time ♪ 1060 00:48:44,870 --> 00:48:46,250 - [gasps] You loved "Beauty and the Beast." 1061 00:48:46,280 --> 00:48:48,460 - In the 8th grade! 1062 00:48:48,490 --> 00:48:51,320 - I. [sighs] 1063 00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:53,150 Well, I thought, 1064 00:48:53,190 --> 00:48:55,810 yeah, because Belle loved reading books, 1065 00:48:55,850 --> 00:48:57,190 and she seemed okay with all the body hair, 1066 00:48:57,230 --> 00:49:01,890 that I- I thought it might be, like, aspirationally apt, 1067 00:49:03,400 --> 00:49:04,300 and "The Fugitive" doesn't really have 1068 00:49:04,340 --> 00:49:07,650 a soundtrack you can dance to, so. 1069 00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:08,480 [gentle bright music] ♪ Messing around ♪ 1070 00:49:08,510 --> 00:49:12,380 ♪ In your backseat tonight ♪ 1071 00:49:12,410 --> 00:49:14,660 ♪ Tonight ♪ 1072 00:49:14,690 --> 00:49:16,210 - I'm sorry about all that. 1073 00:49:16,250 --> 00:49:18,940 - I'm, I'm sorry. I'm, I'm the one who should be sorry. 1074 00:49:18,970 --> 00:49:22,180 - No, no, I mean, I- I may not be a spectacle, 1075 00:49:22,220 --> 00:49:23,490 "Will you go to prom with me?" 1076 00:49:23,530 --> 00:49:27,150 1998 National Honor Society trip top secret. 1077 00:49:27,190 --> 00:49:30,400 - Like a "Beauty and the Beast" ambush kinda gal? 1078 00:49:30,430 --> 00:49:33,260 - No. But I am sorry for the after. 1079 00:49:34,330 --> 00:49:36,780 ♪ I wanna keep my leash off, but you ♪ 1080 00:49:36,820 --> 00:49:40,200 - No, you, you don't have to be sorry. 1081 00:49:40,230 --> 00:49:44,620 - Well, I can. I get to when I wanted to say it. 1082 00:49:44,650 --> 00:49:46,590 - I, you, you, you wanted to go with Scott, 1083 00:49:46,620 --> 00:49:49,450 so I- I mean, I was glad to do it. 1084 00:49:49,490 --> 00:49:52,180 - Yeah. That probably wasn't fun. 1085 00:49:54,590 --> 00:49:56,180 Breaking it off so publicly at lunch, 1086 00:49:56,220 --> 00:49:58,080 so I wouldn't look bad? 1087 00:50:01,810 --> 00:50:05,090 And when I went to the dance with Scott, 1088 00:50:08,750 --> 00:50:11,510 I appreciated what you did for me. 1089 00:50:15,990 --> 00:50:19,140 - Oh, I, you know, I- I did it for me. 1090 00:50:21,590 --> 00:50:22,480 Well, some. 1091 00:50:26,450 --> 00:50:29,730 Mostly. [chuckles] 1092 00:50:29,770 --> 00:50:30,600 It's, uh. 1093 00:50:32,700 --> 00:50:33,530 I mean, how much fun would it be 1094 00:50:33,560 --> 00:50:35,360 to dance with someone all night 1095 00:50:35,390 --> 00:50:37,740 who didn't wanna be dancing with you? 1096 00:50:37,770 --> 00:50:41,740 You know, like a, like a prom hostage? [chuckles] 1097 00:50:41,780 --> 00:50:43,400 - Yeah. 1098 00:50:43,440 --> 00:50:44,370 - It's not fair to you. 1099 00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:47,440 It's, it's not really fun for me, so. 1100 00:50:48,790 --> 00:50:52,820 ♪ A song for anybody else but me ♪ 1101 00:50:52,860 --> 00:50:56,860 ♪ Don't make up a dance for anybody else but me ♪ 1102 00:50:56,900 --> 00:50:58,760 ♪ Ooh, I know ♪ 1103 00:50:58,800 --> 00:51:01,630 - So I- I went with Margaret Vickers. 1104 00:51:01,660 --> 00:51:05,350 I mean, she asked me like right away, 1105 00:51:05,390 --> 00:51:07,870 after the news broke about us. 1106 00:51:08,870 --> 00:51:13,050 And, [sighs] and besides, I mean, 1107 00:51:13,090 --> 00:51:17,470 she saw me naked, so we already had a connection. 1108 00:51:17,500 --> 00:51:19,820 And then I took her home so she didn't miss 1109 00:51:19,850 --> 00:51:21,750 the last hour of TJF with her folks, 1110 00:51:21,780 --> 00:51:23,860 because those were her favorite shows, 1111 00:51:23,890 --> 00:51:26,100 and uh, went to my house 1112 00:51:26,130 --> 00:51:29,450 and watched "Braveheart" in my basement, 1113 00:51:30,760 --> 00:51:32,760 twice, two VHS tape set. 1114 00:51:35,140 --> 00:51:37,140 ♪ For anybody else but me ♪ 1115 00:51:37,180 --> 00:51:39,800 ♪ Ooh, I know, Ohio boy ♪ 1116 00:51:39,840 --> 00:51:41,530 ♪ You're known for talking ♪ 1117 00:51:41,560 --> 00:51:46,710 [device chimes] [gentle soft romantic music] 1118 00:51:46,740 --> 00:51:49,540 - Oh, I- I just wanted to say that these lyrics, 1119 00:51:49,570 --> 00:51:50,850 l- lovely though they may be, 1120 00:51:50,880 --> 00:51:52,920 don't accurately ref- reflect 1121 00:51:52,950 --> 00:51:56,680 my official position or any undue sentiment apropos 1122 00:51:56,720 --> 00:51:58,480 of like my earlier misunderstanding. 1123 00:51:58,510 --> 00:51:59,860 - Ben! - I just wanna be clear. 1124 00:51:59,890 --> 00:52:00,750 - Come. 1125 00:52:00,790 --> 00:52:03,450 [gentle soft romantic music] 1126 00:52:03,480 --> 00:52:08,620 ♪ Ooh ♪ 1127 00:52:08,660 --> 00:52:13,660 ♪ Ooh ♪ 1128 00:52:14,180 --> 00:52:15,840 ♪ Ooh ♪ 1129 00:52:15,870 --> 00:52:17,390 - Scott ended up dancing the whole night 1130 00:52:17,430 --> 00:52:19,260 with someone else's date. 1131 00:52:19,290 --> 00:52:21,120 - I was aware, yeah. 1132 00:52:21,150 --> 00:52:23,640 [gentle soft romantic music continues] 1133 00:52:23,670 --> 00:52:25,570 - Oh, what was even more weird. 1134 00:52:25,610 --> 00:52:27,920 I had made the prom court for some reason. 1135 00:52:27,950 --> 00:52:29,920 - Hm. - And I'm standing there 1136 00:52:29,960 --> 00:52:32,300 thinking, "How did I even get here, 1137 00:52:32,340 --> 00:52:33,240 and why does it feel so nice 1138 00:52:33,270 --> 00:52:34,750 that these people I thought hated me, 1139 00:52:34,790 --> 00:52:37,030 or didn't even know I existed, voted for me 1140 00:52:37,070 --> 00:52:40,590 to be standing there in this sash?" 1141 00:52:40,620 --> 00:52:42,660 - Yeah, I'm, I was probably watching Mel Gibson 1142 00:52:42,690 --> 00:52:43,940 at this point. 1143 00:52:43,970 --> 00:52:48,940 I- I know it's problematic, just, the record still stands. 1144 00:52:49,180 --> 00:52:50,180 - And I win. 1145 00:52:51,740 --> 00:52:53,810 I'm prom queen. 1146 00:52:53,840 --> 00:52:57,190 Oh, but, but before I can dance with Alan v- um, van- 1147 00:52:57,220 --> 00:52:58,260 - Oh, van der Wijkde? 1148 00:52:58,290 --> 00:52:59,360 - Oh yeah. - Yeah. 1149 00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:00,190 - That guy. - The Dutch dude? 1150 00:53:00,230 --> 00:53:01,230 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1151 00:53:01,260 --> 00:53:04,090 - Yeah, before I can dance with Alan Whatever, 1152 00:53:04,130 --> 00:53:07,370 Scott comes up and asks if he can have a flower 1153 00:53:07,410 --> 00:53:12,000 from my prom queen bouquet for his, you know, child bride. 1154 00:53:12,030 --> 00:53:13,100 - Ah, Steffie Green. 1155 00:53:13,140 --> 00:53:16,140 - Yeah, and I say, "Sure, it's in the band room 1156 00:53:16,170 --> 00:53:19,110 where they store, you know, the crowns and stuff." 1157 00:53:19,140 --> 00:53:21,140 And then I dance with Alan, um, van- 1158 00:53:21,180 --> 00:53:24,320 - Van, van, van der Wijkde. - Yeah. Alan van, whatever. 1159 00:53:24,360 --> 00:53:26,560 And then I go back to look at these flowers, like these, 1160 00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:29,770 this empirical evidence that I'm not a complete loser 1161 00:53:29,810 --> 00:53:32,400 for this one fleeting moment in high school. 1162 00:53:32,430 --> 00:53:34,120 And I come in and there's my crown and my sash, 1163 00:53:34,160 --> 00:53:37,400 and then there's just rubble, 1164 00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,580 ribbons ripped, flowers destroyed, 1165 00:53:39,610 --> 00:53:43,310 like someone vomited a chrysanthemum sandwich. 1166 00:53:43,340 --> 00:53:46,790 - Like baby's breath's fiddle just blah blah everywhere? 1167 00:53:46,830 --> 00:53:48,590 - It was just a mess, a complete mess. 1168 00:53:48,620 --> 00:53:49,860 - [Ben] Oh. 1169 00:53:49,900 --> 00:53:51,930 - So I threw it in the trash and went home. 1170 00:53:51,970 --> 00:53:54,660 And I did not watch "Braveheart." 1171 00:53:56,180 --> 00:53:56,970 - Twice. 1172 00:53:59,010 --> 00:54:00,770 [Ben chuckles] 1173 00:54:00,810 --> 00:54:03,810 [soft bright music] 1174 00:54:04,980 --> 00:54:09,260 - Like some cruel trick becoming prom queen, anyway. 1175 00:54:11,510 --> 00:54:14,890 [bright upbeat music] 1176 00:54:14,920 --> 00:54:17,100 - Did you know that I, uh, 1177 00:54:19,310 --> 00:54:21,830 I used to request Guns N' Roses' "November Rain" 1178 00:54:21,860 --> 00:54:23,410 like at every dance, all the time. 1179 00:54:23,450 --> 00:54:24,620 - Yeah? 1180 00:54:24,660 --> 00:54:26,620 - Yeah, and I would, uh, 1181 00:54:28,490 --> 00:54:30,900 slip the college kid DJ like a fiver, 1182 00:54:30,940 --> 00:54:33,010 and then I would post up near Christie Deaver, 1183 00:54:33,040 --> 00:54:35,460 so, you know, I could ask her 1184 00:54:37,700 --> 00:54:39,640 to dance as soon as the song started. 1185 00:54:39,670 --> 00:54:42,330 [Fran chuckles] 1186 00:54:43,330 --> 00:54:46,820 And then, you know, for 8 minutes and 56 seconds, 1187 00:54:46,850 --> 00:54:49,160 you know, we, we could talk. 1188 00:54:50,440 --> 00:54:52,510 Well, ex- except for that awkward moment 1189 00:54:52,550 --> 00:54:53,790 in the bridge when you're not sure if you should 1190 00:54:53,820 --> 00:54:54,790 fast dance- - Oh! 1191 00:54:54,820 --> 00:54:56,410 - Or just keep wobbling. 1192 00:54:56,450 --> 00:54:59,830 [gentle upbeat music] 1193 00:54:59,860 --> 00:55:01,240 But, and, and there was some strategy to it, 1194 00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:02,380 but not, not like a trap, 1195 00:55:02,420 --> 00:55:05,420 I mean, they, they could go, you know? 1196 00:55:05,460 --> 00:55:07,350 I was just hoping that, 1197 00:55:09,870 --> 00:55:13,400 you know, may, maybe that she'd wanna stay. 1198 00:55:16,780 --> 00:55:19,190 But you, you, you could tell. 1199 00:55:22,060 --> 00:55:24,340 I mean, I- I- I could tell. 1200 00:55:25,200 --> 00:55:26,200 She was nice, 1201 00:55:26,240 --> 00:55:31,140 but she was just waiting for the song to be over. 1202 00:55:31,170 --> 00:55:33,310 [gentle upbeat music] ♪ But I still lick each one ♪ 1203 00:55:33,350 --> 00:55:35,380 ♪ And I ♪ 1204 00:55:36,420 --> 00:55:39,390 - [Fran] I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch. 1205 00:55:39,420 --> 00:55:43,320 - You know, I haven't really been in a place to be touched. 1206 00:55:43,360 --> 00:55:45,190 I- I mean, emails not. 1207 00:55:46,570 --> 00:55:49,600 [Fran and Ben laugh] 1208 00:55:51,290 --> 00:55:52,610 I'm sorry. - No. 1209 00:55:54,400 --> 00:55:58,540 Oh God, I just wanted to get outta here, you know? 1210 00:55:58,580 --> 00:56:02,550 Find myself apart from this place, and from Mom. 1211 00:56:04,100 --> 00:56:05,410 - Well, did you? 1212 00:56:06,310 --> 00:56:07,660 Find yourself? 1213 00:56:07,690 --> 00:56:09,110 - Shut up. 1214 00:56:09,140 --> 00:56:11,520 I don't know. I love Chicago. 1215 00:56:13,560 --> 00:56:16,420 Loved finally having autonomy. Still do. 1216 00:56:16,460 --> 00:56:17,800 My private practice was going well 1217 00:56:17,840 --> 00:56:20,320 until I had to put it on hold. 1218 00:56:21,700 --> 00:56:24,780 But these last few years, losing Mom, 1219 00:56:26,360 --> 00:56:28,260 it's shifted some stuff, you know? 1220 00:56:28,300 --> 00:56:30,640 ♪ And you're gonna be fine ♪ 1221 00:56:30,680 --> 00:56:31,710 - [Ben] Yeah. 1222 00:56:33,230 --> 00:56:36,240 - How have you been since Lana, and? 1223 00:56:38,720 --> 00:56:39,580 - It's just like you forget 1224 00:56:39,620 --> 00:56:41,620 about your own stuff, kinda, you know? 1225 00:56:41,660 --> 00:56:43,000 - Yeah. 1226 00:56:43,040 --> 00:56:43,830 - [Ben] It doesn't really enter 1227 00:56:43,860 --> 00:56:46,210 into the equation after a while. 1228 00:56:46,250 --> 00:56:48,350 [gentle upbeat music] [vocalist harmonizing] 1229 00:56:48,390 --> 00:56:50,910 ♪ And you're gonna be fine ♪ 1230 00:56:50,940 --> 00:56:53,810 ♪ You'll see ♪ 1231 00:56:53,840 --> 00:56:56,600 - It's not all terrible, you know? 1232 00:56:59,160 --> 00:57:00,670 I'm grateful for it, you know, in a way, 1233 00:57:00,710 --> 00:57:02,990 but in, in, in a, in a big way. 1234 00:57:03,020 --> 00:57:06,200 [gentle upbeat music] 1235 00:57:07,720 --> 00:57:10,790 There's this privilege, you know, in learning 1236 00:57:10,820 --> 00:57:13,960 that people who let you love the most, 1237 00:57:15,550 --> 00:57:18,140 you know, they, they may end up 1238 00:57:20,140 --> 00:57:21,350 being the ones that, you know, 1239 00:57:21,380 --> 00:57:23,390 cause you the most pain. 1240 00:57:26,110 --> 00:57:31,020 You get to make this decision, you know, that acknowledges 1241 00:57:31,050 --> 00:57:33,290 that to be open to the good 1242 00:57:35,470 --> 00:57:37,260 that the, that the bad, or at least the hard, 1243 00:57:37,300 --> 00:57:39,370 you know, could, could be coming too. 1244 00:57:39,400 --> 00:57:41,230 - Mm-hmm. - It's like some kind of, 1245 00:57:41,270 --> 00:57:43,270 I don't know, like emotional physics. 1246 00:57:43,300 --> 00:57:48,270 - Yeah, [chuckles] and Newtonian feelings, 1247 00:57:48,310 --> 00:57:50,520 opposite and equal reaction. 1248 00:57:50,550 --> 00:57:53,660 Yeah, I- I felt closer to my mom 1249 00:57:53,690 --> 00:57:56,560 than I ever did when she was dying. 1250 00:57:59,110 --> 00:57:59,940 - Yeah. 1251 00:58:01,110 --> 00:58:03,940 And to be open for the good, you have to acknowledge 1252 00:58:03,980 --> 00:58:06,220 the possibility of the bad, 1253 00:58:09,020 --> 00:58:10,190 and sad. 1254 00:58:10,230 --> 00:58:13,610 [soft slow bright music] 1255 00:58:16,410 --> 00:58:18,860 ♪ Sometimes I look in the mirror ♪ 1256 00:58:18,890 --> 00:58:21,650 ♪ And I stare at the bald spot at top of my head ♪ 1257 00:58:21,690 --> 00:58:23,860 [gentle upbeat music] 1258 00:58:23,900 --> 00:58:26,620 - Are you gonna be able to do this? 1259 00:58:26,660 --> 00:58:28,520 Like, is this the place 1260 00:58:30,040 --> 00:58:32,460 where you wanna be right now? 1261 00:58:33,320 --> 00:58:37,700 I know you're going through a lot and so am I, but... 1262 00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:40,530 - I don't know if I, 1263 00:58:42,120 --> 00:58:45,020 yeah, I- I- I- I wanna be anywhere, 1264 00:58:46,750 --> 00:58:49,130 you know, right now. 1265 00:58:49,160 --> 00:58:51,160 - What do you mean? 1266 00:58:51,200 --> 00:58:52,440 - I don't know, I. 1267 00:58:52,480 --> 00:58:54,270 ♪ 'Cause this mess ♪ 1268 00:58:54,310 --> 00:58:56,240 - No, I- I mean, I had been thinking that. 1269 00:58:56,270 --> 00:59:00,040 ♪ Ever been and I guess all of the ♪ 1270 00:59:00,070 --> 00:59:02,040 [device chimes] 1271 00:59:02,070 --> 00:59:05,040 - I had been thinking that it's, it's, 1272 00:59:05,070 --> 00:59:06,730 uh, you know, after, 1273 00:59:09,630 --> 00:59:11,870 maybe it's just time to go. 1274 00:59:15,150 --> 00:59:16,470 No, I- I- I had been thinking, 1275 00:59:16,500 --> 00:59:18,230 n- not, I'm not like, 1276 00:59:20,750 --> 00:59:24,890 it was just hard to handle all the, like, the, um, 1277 00:59:26,610 --> 00:59:27,650 I don't know. 1278 00:59:28,720 --> 00:59:30,620 I don't know, like to think of... 1279 00:59:30,650 --> 00:59:32,960 [stammers] Like, like, like the kids, like these, 1280 00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:35,170 like these generations, you know, just below us? 1281 00:59:35,210 --> 00:59:38,830 I- I'm just alarmed by how much I'm bothered 1282 00:59:40,010 --> 00:59:42,940 by, like, millennials at all lately, 1283 00:59:43,870 --> 00:59:45,220 you know, I just, they're grasping 1284 00:59:45,250 --> 00:59:48,190 for any excuse to insulate them 1285 00:59:48,220 --> 00:59:49,770 from having to put in any actual effort 1286 00:59:49,810 --> 00:59:51,910 while exuberantly patting themselves on the back 1287 00:59:51,950 --> 00:59:54,850 for like minimal levels adulting, I just. 1288 00:59:54,880 --> 00:59:57,160 I mean, all that self-care and boundary talk, 1289 00:59:57,200 --> 00:59:59,060 often it's just camouflage 1290 00:59:59,090 --> 01:00:03,480 for acting like scaredy cat, self-important assholes! 1291 01:00:04,580 --> 01:00:05,960 No, I don't wanna hydrate. 1292 01:00:06,000 --> 01:00:07,590 Christ, when'd we all forget about electrolytes? 1293 01:00:07,620 --> 01:00:11,240 I haven't. That's why I ate all those chips. 1294 01:00:13,970 --> 01:00:17,660 - Okay, so you, so you want to, because of millennials? 1295 01:00:17,700 --> 01:00:18,730 - No, no, I'm sorry. 1296 01:00:18,770 --> 01:00:21,980 I don't, I don't, I don't know why I said that, I. 1297 01:00:22,010 --> 01:00:23,570 Maybe just people acting 1298 01:00:23,600 --> 01:00:26,260 like they have a, a monopoly on feelings. 1299 01:00:26,290 --> 01:00:27,540 I don't, I don't hate the kids. 1300 01:00:27,570 --> 01:00:29,570 I'm just a- aggressively 1301 01:00:33,580 --> 01:00:35,580 bewildered by them. 1302 01:00:35,610 --> 01:00:38,170 - Okay, let's, [sighs] let's put millennials 1303 01:00:38,200 --> 01:00:40,240 to the side for a moment. 1304 01:00:41,210 --> 01:00:43,830 Are you saying that you want to? 1305 01:00:45,660 --> 01:00:47,970 - No, I- I- I'm here, Franny. I- I am here. 1306 01:00:48,010 --> 01:00:49,320 I- I don't know if that's a sign 1307 01:00:49,350 --> 01:00:51,220 that I am or that I'm not. 1308 01:00:51,250 --> 01:00:52,940 I'm just saying that I had been leaning 1309 01:00:52,980 --> 01:00:54,870 to- towards the former. 1310 01:00:56,220 --> 01:00:58,220 - Former meaning after we're done here? 1311 01:00:58,260 --> 01:01:00,360 - Yeah, [stammers] no, I mean, 1312 01:01:00,400 --> 01:01:02,430 it's, it's all, it's just, I, it, 1313 01:01:02,470 --> 01:01:05,680 [stammers] it's like part of why I am here. 1314 01:01:05,710 --> 01:01:07,020 It's just part. 1315 01:01:07,060 --> 01:01:08,400 - Part of why you're here with me? 1316 01:01:08,440 --> 01:01:09,960 You agreed to be my donor, 1317 01:01:09,990 --> 01:01:12,370 so you're doing this because? 1318 01:01:13,650 --> 01:01:15,650 - So something would, I don't know, 1319 01:01:15,690 --> 01:01:18,410 so maybe I could feel like I did something right. 1320 01:01:18,450 --> 01:01:20,970 I- I could finally do something right. 1321 01:01:21,000 --> 01:01:22,590 Could do something right. 1322 01:01:22,630 --> 01:01:26,870 I could find, and I- I can't even do that either. 1323 01:01:26,910 --> 01:01:27,870 I- I'm just. 1324 01:01:29,250 --> 01:01:31,500 I wanna be honest about how things had been going. 1325 01:01:31,530 --> 01:01:34,120 And I- I- I thought you, that you may wanna know, 1326 01:01:34,150 --> 01:01:35,190 and I'm, I am sorry. - No, I'm glad 1327 01:01:35,220 --> 01:01:36,020 that you told me. - It's not like 1328 01:01:36,050 --> 01:01:37,260 I'm gonna go, I'm not. - I'm, I'm- 1329 01:01:37,300 --> 01:01:38,430 - I'm not- - I'm, I'm, 1330 01:01:38,470 --> 01:01:39,680 I'm glad you told me. - And now 1331 01:01:39,710 --> 01:01:41,680 I've just, and, and now I've ruined prom twice! 1332 01:01:41,710 --> 01:01:43,200 - No, you didn't, didn't ruin prom. 1333 01:01:43,230 --> 01:01:44,060 - Kinda, kinda, 1334 01:01:44,100 --> 01:01:44,890 kinda did. - No, no, no. 1335 01:01:44,920 --> 01:01:46,550 Stop being a negative narcissist! 1336 01:01:46,580 --> 01:01:48,170 You're not to blame for everything. 1337 01:01:48,200 --> 01:01:50,690 Okay? So? [chuckles] 1338 01:01:50,720 --> 01:01:52,070 I need a moment. 1339 01:01:57,040 --> 01:02:00,080 Why didn't you put this on the questionnaire? 1340 01:02:00,110 --> 01:02:02,180 - Well, you didn't ask it on the questionnaire. 1341 01:02:02,220 --> 01:02:04,740 - Oh, the questionnaire had to do with your general health. 1342 01:02:04,770 --> 01:02:06,190 I would think it would be a given that- 1343 01:02:06,220 --> 01:02:08,290 - What, what, to say something? 1344 01:02:08,330 --> 01:02:13,260 [stammers] Because I haven't seen you in like 25 years, 1345 01:02:13,300 --> 01:02:16,300 and it's really, Fran, it's really none of your business. 1346 01:02:16,330 --> 01:02:18,100 - It is my business! 1347 01:02:18,130 --> 01:02:21,270 It became my business when you agreed. 1348 01:02:22,620 --> 01:02:24,930 [Fran scoffing] 1349 01:02:24,960 --> 01:02:26,590 Oh, okay. I'm sorry. 1350 01:02:27,620 --> 01:02:30,590 Like, is there a history of, of this, 1351 01:02:31,630 --> 01:02:33,900 of mental illness, or anything like this, 1352 01:02:33,940 --> 01:02:35,150 in your family? 1353 01:02:36,290 --> 01:02:38,150 Your parents? 1354 01:02:38,180 --> 01:02:39,670 - No, just cancer. 1355 01:02:41,810 --> 01:02:43,120 - And your wife? 1356 01:02:44,540 --> 01:02:45,400 - My wife? 1357 01:02:48,060 --> 01:02:52,410 [sighs] I didn't, I didn't marry my cousin, Fran! 1358 01:02:52,440 --> 01:02:53,610 I just had my wife die on me. 1359 01:02:53,650 --> 01:02:56,580 So, so boom, you know, there I was! 1360 01:02:59,210 --> 01:03:03,520 - Okay, so you contemplating suicide is due to Lana, 1361 01:03:04,380 --> 01:03:06,450 your grief, your parents? 1362 01:03:07,730 --> 01:03:09,560 It's not something that precedes them, right? 1363 01:03:09,590 --> 01:03:11,180 Something chemical? 1364 01:03:15,190 --> 01:03:17,260 So, just so I understand. 1365 01:03:18,570 --> 01:03:20,300 Here you are, 1366 01:03:20,330 --> 01:03:23,540 here you are right now feeling these things, 1367 01:03:23,570 --> 01:03:27,720 hoping you can do something right before you what? 1368 01:03:27,750 --> 01:03:28,890 Kill yourself? 1369 01:03:31,510 --> 01:03:35,660 I'm sorry, but I am not sorry that I have to know. 1370 01:03:41,940 --> 01:03:42,770 Ben? 1371 01:03:49,260 --> 01:03:53,120 You know, the moment my mom died, she took this 1372 01:03:55,230 --> 01:03:56,640 long last breath. 1373 01:03:58,300 --> 01:04:01,410 It was just me and this hospice nurse. 1374 01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:03,340 Oh God, this nurse had been there every moment. 1375 01:04:03,370 --> 01:04:06,240 I couldn't have done it without her. 1376 01:04:07,240 --> 01:04:09,760 And my mom, she takes this last breath, 1377 01:04:09,790 --> 01:04:10,690 this, this. 1378 01:04:14,420 --> 01:04:18,040 [Fran exhales deeply] 1379 01:04:18,080 --> 01:04:20,110 [soft somber music] 1380 01:04:20,150 --> 01:04:23,010 [Fran sobbing] 1381 01:04:23,050 --> 01:04:25,570 And then she's gone. [scoffs] 1382 01:04:25,600 --> 01:04:27,640 And I- I look up at, at this nurse, 1383 01:04:27,670 --> 01:04:29,610 and she's just gazing at my mom, 1384 01:04:29,640 --> 01:04:31,640 as if I'm not even in the room. 1385 01:04:31,680 --> 01:04:34,330 And she, she whispers in wonder, 1386 01:04:37,410 --> 01:04:39,890 "It's just like giving birth." 1387 01:04:41,620 --> 01:04:43,520 And I had this surge of jealousy 1388 01:04:43,550 --> 01:04:46,830 that she, she understood something deep 1389 01:04:46,860 --> 01:04:50,390 and primal that I didn't, you know? 1390 01:04:50,420 --> 01:04:53,420 [soft somber music] 1391 01:04:55,670 --> 01:04:57,390 I don't dismiss this. 1392 01:04:58,460 --> 01:05:02,670 My heart breaks to see how hard this has been for you. 1393 01:05:02,710 --> 01:05:04,430 How hard it is still. 1394 01:05:05,750 --> 01:05:08,750 It truly does, but I- I can't pretend 1395 01:05:08,780 --> 01:05:11,410 that, as empathetic as I am to you, 1396 01:05:11,440 --> 01:05:14,200 somebody who I am truly glad to see 1397 01:05:14,240 --> 01:05:17,450 and to have here, and to have reconnected with, 1398 01:05:17,480 --> 01:05:20,310 I can't pretend that anything I feel about you 1399 01:05:20,350 --> 01:05:22,940 eclipses the health and happiness 1400 01:05:22,970 --> 01:05:25,350 of this long hoped for child. 1401 01:05:29,360 --> 01:05:32,050 I have tried to, to give you space 1402 01:05:33,120 --> 01:05:35,600 and time to fulfill your end of the bargain here. 1403 01:05:35,640 --> 01:05:38,090 I have tried to make this a safe space, 1404 01:05:38,120 --> 01:05:42,400 but I am done bending over backwards to accommodate. 1405 01:05:43,470 --> 01:05:46,480 I'm a 44-year-old woman who only has 1406 01:05:46,510 --> 01:05:49,000 a certain amount of time, [chuckles] 1407 01:05:49,030 --> 01:05:50,130 biologically speaking. 1408 01:05:50,170 --> 01:05:52,760 I am here to try to begin life, 1409 01:05:54,860 --> 01:05:56,760 not to help end it. 1410 01:05:56,800 --> 01:05:59,760 [soft somber music] 1411 01:06:02,910 --> 01:06:06,770 I booked the rooms through to tomorrow morning. 1412 01:06:08,770 --> 01:06:12,430 You're welcome to stay until your flight out. 1413 01:06:12,470 --> 01:06:15,440 [soft somber music] 1414 01:06:16,440 --> 01:06:17,850 - Franny! Franny! 1415 01:06:20,410 --> 01:06:22,860 [door thuds] 1416 01:06:24,340 --> 01:06:27,720 [soft slow somber music] 1417 01:06:34,450 --> 01:06:36,910 [Fran sighs] 1418 01:06:38,320 --> 01:06:39,670 [door thuds] 1419 01:06:39,700 --> 01:06:43,910 [soft slow somber music continues] 1420 01:06:52,470 --> 01:06:55,410 [phone ringing] 1421 01:06:55,440 --> 01:06:58,200 [Fran sighs] 1422 01:06:58,240 --> 01:07:02,340 [phone continues ringing] 1423 01:07:02,380 --> 01:07:03,210 - Ow. 1424 01:07:04,240 --> 01:07:07,730 [phone continues ringing] 1425 01:07:09,770 --> 01:07:14,490 [Fran sighs] [phone continues ringing] 1426 01:07:14,530 --> 01:07:17,810 [Fran sniffles] 1427 01:07:17,840 --> 01:07:18,670 Hello? 1428 01:07:20,260 --> 01:07:22,740 - Hello, I'm calling for Fran. 1429 01:07:23,640 --> 01:07:27,780 [Fran inhales and exhales deeply] 1430 01:07:32,030 --> 01:07:33,030 Fran, I, um. 1431 01:07:36,140 --> 01:07:36,970 I, uh. 1432 01:07:38,830 --> 01:07:40,870 [knuckles rapping] 1433 01:07:40,900 --> 01:07:42,000 - [Fran] Ben? 1434 01:07:43,940 --> 01:07:45,530 - Yes? 1435 01:07:45,560 --> 01:07:48,360 - [Fran] I need my coat and purse. 1436 01:07:51,320 --> 01:07:52,120 - Okay. 1437 01:07:53,570 --> 01:07:56,570 [footsteps tapping] 1438 01:08:05,480 --> 01:08:08,070 [device thuds] 1439 01:08:10,310 --> 01:08:14,070 [sighs] All right, I- I got it. 1440 01:08:14,110 --> 01:08:15,040 [door creaks] 1441 01:08:15,070 --> 01:08:18,770 [streamers rustle] 1442 01:08:18,800 --> 01:08:19,630 Oh. 1443 01:08:24,460 --> 01:08:25,290 [door creaks] 1444 01:08:25,320 --> 01:08:26,570 Fran, I- I ju- 1445 01:08:26,600 --> 01:08:29,120 [door thuds] 1446 01:08:32,300 --> 01:08:35,440 [gentle upbeat music] 1447 01:08:41,370 --> 01:08:44,520 [gentle bright music] 1448 01:08:48,210 --> 01:08:50,940 [Ben sighs] [vocalist harmonizing] 1449 01:08:50,970 --> 01:08:53,870 [gentle bright music continues] 1450 01:08:53,900 --> 01:08:57,320 ♪ You know, I was really onto something ♪ 1451 01:08:57,360 --> 01:09:00,080 ♪ Coming round on a carousel ♪ 1452 01:09:00,120 --> 01:09:04,120 [gentle bright music continues] 1453 01:09:05,880 --> 01:09:09,440 ♪ Freedom, got the spirit up and running ♪ 1454 01:09:09,470 --> 01:09:11,720 ♪ Get the key when I ring the bell ♪ 1455 01:09:11,750 --> 01:09:12,850 [gentle bright music continues] 1456 01:09:12,890 --> 01:09:15,820 [vocalist humming] 1457 01:09:17,790 --> 01:09:20,240 ♪ Sad to see you stuck ♪ 1458 01:09:20,280 --> 01:09:23,660 ♪ Where I got to clear ♪ 1459 01:09:23,690 --> 01:09:27,390 ♪ Now steal my glass and drink away ♪ 1460 01:09:27,420 --> 01:09:29,970 [gentle bright music continues] 1461 01:09:30,010 --> 01:09:34,980 ♪ Maybe I don't like how long it takes ♪ 1462 01:09:35,260 --> 01:09:37,710 ♪ Thought I saw the sun for a second ♪ 1463 01:09:37,740 --> 01:09:42,160 ♪ But now I don't know if I'm gonna get it ♪ 1464 01:09:42,190 --> 01:09:45,200 ♪ Did I close my hand too fast ♪ 1465 01:09:45,230 --> 01:09:47,060 ♪ I'm bruised ♪ 1466 01:09:47,100 --> 01:09:49,960 ♪ Thought you were the one that, baby ♪ 1467 01:09:49,990 --> 01:09:53,960 ♪ Would take me to the floor and deliver ♪ 1468 01:09:54,000 --> 01:09:56,760 ♪ To the sky with the fall ♪ 1469 01:09:56,790 --> 01:10:00,110 ♪ And I'm not never coming home ♪ 1470 01:10:00,140 --> 01:10:05,110 [bright solemn music] [vocalist harmonizing] 1471 01:10:07,600 --> 01:10:10,150 [car rumbling] 1472 01:10:11,950 --> 01:10:14,850 [metal clattering] 1473 01:10:16,570 --> 01:10:19,710 [car tires crunching] 1474 01:10:23,610 --> 01:10:26,340 [wind whooshing] 1475 01:10:27,650 --> 01:10:29,070 [door thuds] 1476 01:10:29,100 --> 01:10:32,110 [footsteps tapping] 1477 01:10:36,700 --> 01:10:39,420 [wind whooshing] 1478 01:10:43,740 --> 01:10:47,160 - Sorry, I- I was just kinda re- marooned 1479 01:10:48,090 --> 01:10:50,680 in your room, sans keys, sans coat, 1480 01:10:50,710 --> 01:10:52,060 sans everything. 1481 01:10:56,230 --> 01:10:57,890 I, there's not a coffee maker in there, 1482 01:10:57,920 --> 01:10:59,480 and the, and the office is still closed, 1483 01:10:59,510 --> 01:11:02,520 so I- I just ran these underneath the tap 1484 01:11:02,550 --> 01:11:05,760 till they got at least a little warmer. 1485 01:11:08,250 --> 01:11:09,070 Sorry. 1486 01:11:12,040 --> 01:11:12,910 Can I? 1487 01:11:15,050 --> 01:11:17,880 [gate clattering] 1488 01:11:20,780 --> 01:11:23,190 [gate thuds] 1489 01:11:25,370 --> 01:11:28,090 [chair scraping] 1490 01:11:29,720 --> 01:11:34,650 [traffic droning] [horns honking] 1491 01:11:36,520 --> 01:11:38,070 Morning. - Morning. 1492 01:11:40,210 --> 01:11:41,620 You want one? 1493 01:11:41,660 --> 01:11:43,380 - Yeah, but no, I don't. 1494 01:11:43,420 --> 01:11:45,560 Oh, well, [stammers] I don't. 1495 01:11:45,590 --> 01:11:49,800 Maybe I'll just hold one to, you know, be sociable. 1496 01:11:51,840 --> 01:11:53,910 - You want me to light it? - Yeah. 1497 01:11:53,950 --> 01:11:56,050 [lighter clicks] 1498 01:11:56,090 --> 01:11:57,540 Nice. 1499 01:11:57,570 --> 01:12:00,230 [Fran chuckles] 1500 01:12:03,470 --> 01:12:06,230 [lighter clicking] 1501 01:12:06,270 --> 01:12:09,000 [wind whooshing] 1502 01:12:15,660 --> 01:12:17,630 - I don't take for granted what you shared or- 1503 01:12:17,660 --> 01:12:18,730 - Sure. Appreciate that. 1504 01:12:18,760 --> 01:12:19,630 - How hard it must have been 1505 01:12:19,660 --> 01:12:20,900 to share it. - Sure. 1506 01:12:20,940 --> 01:12:21,840 No, no, no. - And I want you to know 1507 01:12:21,870 --> 01:12:22,800 that I don't blame you 1508 01:12:22,840 --> 01:12:23,670 or think- - Sure. 1509 01:12:23,700 --> 01:12:24,940 - You're bad for having those thoughts. 1510 01:12:24,980 --> 01:12:26,390 - Of course. Yeah. - I'm glad you shared. 1511 01:12:26,430 --> 01:12:27,570 You should share, 1512 01:12:27,600 --> 01:12:29,260 be sharing, Ben? - Yeah, yeah. 1513 01:12:29,290 --> 01:12:30,740 Yeah? - I- I appreciate 1514 01:12:30,780 --> 01:12:32,290 the verbal affirmation here- - Okay. 1515 01:12:32,330 --> 01:12:33,810 - But um, it's starting to feel 1516 01:12:33,850 --> 01:12:35,850 like I'm at that, at a little league game. 1517 01:12:35,880 --> 01:12:39,510 - Oh, you mean like, "Hey, batter, better swing better"? 1518 01:12:39,540 --> 01:12:40,540 - [Fran] Yeah. 1519 01:12:40,580 --> 01:12:41,370 - Oh. 1520 01:12:42,790 --> 01:12:44,130 Yeah, someone once told me 1521 01:12:44,170 --> 01:12:46,900 that, that verbal affirmation helps people know 1522 01:12:46,930 --> 01:12:47,830 that you're listening, 1523 01:12:47,860 --> 01:12:50,040 that you're like here with 'em. 1524 01:12:50,070 --> 01:12:51,900 - Yeah, that's fair, 1525 01:12:51,940 --> 01:12:55,110 uh, but we're getting into mumbly, auctioneer territory, 1526 01:12:55,150 --> 01:12:57,390 and I know you're here, so. 1527 01:13:00,460 --> 01:13:04,220 I just wanna make clear that all those things, 1528 01:13:04,260 --> 01:13:08,540 being glad you shared, you talking, all of it, 1529 01:13:08,570 --> 01:13:10,230 is not mutually exclusive 1530 01:13:10,260 --> 01:13:14,030 to the fiercely protective feelings I have 1531 01:13:14,060 --> 01:13:16,130 for this potential child. 1532 01:13:17,960 --> 01:13:20,200 And, and those are non-negotiable, those feelings. 1533 01:13:20,240 --> 01:13:21,590 They are not up for debate. 1534 01:13:21,620 --> 01:13:25,930 They can't be, if I'm going to make it through this. 1535 01:13:28,730 --> 01:13:29,940 Ben? 1536 01:13:29,970 --> 01:13:32,700 - Sorry, sorry, I- I just kinda course-corrected 1537 01:13:32,730 --> 01:13:36,950 a little too hard in the op, the other direction, I. 1538 01:13:36,980 --> 01:13:40,670 Listen, what, what I'm about to say is, 1539 01:13:40,710 --> 01:13:42,780 it, it doesn't contradict any of that. 1540 01:13:42,810 --> 01:13:44,880 It's a, you know, 1541 01:13:44,920 --> 01:13:47,400 a, a, a fuller, full-throated, 1542 01:13:49,230 --> 01:13:50,230 hell, yeah! 1543 01:13:50,270 --> 01:13:53,510 Hell, yeah, affirmation to, to all that, 1544 01:13:53,550 --> 01:13:56,450 this, and you, and, uh, this future 1545 01:13:59,930 --> 01:14:04,180 h- human being. [train horn blowing] 1546 01:14:04,210 --> 01:14:09,010 It's just, I- I know that there's probably this, uh, fear, 1547 01:14:10,880 --> 01:14:14,160 or like feeling, you know, that, um, 1548 01:14:14,190 --> 01:14:16,570 any kid that has a part of me 1549 01:14:17,850 --> 01:14:19,090 is, is probably gonna have like 1550 01:14:19,130 --> 01:14:21,780 those sad lost parts of me too. 1551 01:14:21,820 --> 01:14:23,610 That they're gonna, you know, probably have a problem, 1552 01:14:23,650 --> 01:14:25,990 like with, you know, fine motor skills, 1553 01:14:26,030 --> 01:14:28,410 like with scissors, you know? 1554 01:14:31,210 --> 01:14:34,560 The aforementioned, uh, metabolism issue, 1555 01:14:35,590 --> 01:14:39,460 or my family's predisposition for cancer, 1556 01:14:39,490 --> 01:14:41,150 or the autism issue. 1557 01:14:43,700 --> 01:14:44,770 - Wait, what? 1558 01:14:46,360 --> 01:14:47,430 - The autism. 1559 01:14:48,430 --> 01:14:49,500 You, you? Oh. 1560 01:14:51,680 --> 01:14:54,130 Oh, the, the, the doctor, my, my therapist, 1561 01:14:54,160 --> 01:14:56,440 sent me to this, this doctor, 1562 01:14:56,470 --> 01:15:00,750 'cause I was, well, I was having a hard time 1563 01:15:00,790 --> 01:15:04,720 making sense of everything that I was feeling, 1564 01:15:04,760 --> 01:15:07,830 and, and she said that, you know, 1565 01:15:07,860 --> 01:15:08,900 are like, um, 1566 01:15:10,560 --> 01:15:12,870 like three times more likely 1567 01:15:14,110 --> 01:15:16,630 to have like, suicide thoughts. 1568 01:15:18,080 --> 01:15:19,810 So that I might be, you know? 1569 01:15:19,840 --> 01:15:21,770 I was like, "No, no, I mean, no!" 1570 01:15:21,810 --> 01:15:24,190 I mean, that's like what people on social media use 1571 01:15:24,230 --> 01:15:27,370 as an excuse for acting like assholes. 1572 01:15:28,540 --> 01:15:32,370 But I went back and well, for like two months, 1573 01:15:32,410 --> 01:15:34,550 and I did all these tests. 1574 01:15:35,690 --> 01:15:38,580 I guess, you know, I'm, I'm kinda moving 1575 01:15:38,620 --> 01:15:40,790 out of the woods on the, the suicide part, 1576 01:15:40,830 --> 01:15:42,480 but I'm still solidly in the woods 1577 01:15:42,520 --> 01:15:44,800 on the, on the autism stuff. 1578 01:15:49,660 --> 01:15:50,700 Kinda tracks? 1579 01:15:52,460 --> 01:15:53,290 - Yeah. 1580 01:15:56,360 --> 01:15:57,570 - Historically? 1581 01:15:59,990 --> 01:16:03,850 - So my kid would most likely have a predisposition 1582 01:16:03,890 --> 01:16:06,850 to cancer, autism, suicide ideation- 1583 01:16:08,610 --> 01:16:10,310 - And, uh, issues with fine motor skills, 1584 01:16:10,340 --> 01:16:14,550 like scissors, and, uh, well, the metabolism thing. 1585 01:16:16,210 --> 01:16:17,870 - Right. 1586 01:16:17,900 --> 01:16:20,700 [traffic droning] 1587 01:16:26,870 --> 01:16:29,950 [train horn blowing] 1588 01:16:32,400 --> 01:16:33,740 But would also have the ability 1589 01:16:33,780 --> 01:16:36,330 to think up a way to make that. 1590 01:16:42,790 --> 01:16:47,720 I've never questioned why your brain worked the way it does. 1591 01:16:48,170 --> 01:16:49,720 I've just loved it. 1592 01:16:52,970 --> 01:16:57,460 [chuckles] You've always made such extraordinary things, 1593 01:16:57,490 --> 01:16:59,800 tried so hard, felt so much. 1594 01:17:06,290 --> 01:17:10,430 So maybe there's just as many good parts here too. 1595 01:17:14,340 --> 01:17:17,610 Shit, it's cold. [sniffles] 1596 01:17:17,650 --> 01:17:18,480 - Yeah. 1597 01:17:22,930 --> 01:17:25,620 - You wanna go for a drive? 1598 01:17:25,660 --> 01:17:29,380 - Yeah. [gentle upbeat music] 1599 01:17:31,520 --> 01:17:34,220 [car engine rumbling] 1600 01:17:34,250 --> 01:17:37,190 [gentle upbeat music continues] 1601 01:17:37,220 --> 01:17:41,710 ♪ Oh, we had a good time toward the end there ♪ 1602 01:17:41,740 --> 01:17:43,300 ♪ In a well-lit house ♪ 1603 01:17:43,330 --> 01:17:45,990 ♪ We'd sit together on the couch ♪ 1604 01:17:46,020 --> 01:17:48,440 ♪ Watch the television screen for hours ♪ 1605 01:17:48,470 --> 01:17:50,720 ♪ I had you, you had me ♪ 1606 01:17:50,750 --> 01:17:53,170 ♪ And there were flowers ♪ 1607 01:17:53,200 --> 01:17:57,170 [gentle upbeat music continues] 1608 01:18:00,550 --> 01:18:02,800 ♪ Before the end there ♪ 1609 01:18:02,830 --> 01:18:07,800 [birds chirping] [car engine rumbling] 1610 01:18:13,360 --> 01:18:14,640 - Ah. [car sensor beeping] 1611 01:18:14,670 --> 01:18:17,020 [car engine rumbling] 1612 01:18:17,050 --> 01:18:20,640 I just didn't want you to get cold, and uh, 1613 01:18:21,890 --> 01:18:23,580 I- I just wanted to say one quick, 1614 01:18:23,610 --> 01:18:26,100 I wanted you to know that, um, 1615 01:18:27,480 --> 01:18:29,310 that not going to prom with me didn't, 1616 01:18:29,340 --> 01:18:31,620 didn't like ruin me. 1617 01:18:31,650 --> 01:18:33,170 You know, that, that's not why I'd said 1618 01:18:33,210 --> 01:18:34,350 or did all that, I mean, 1619 01:18:34,380 --> 01:18:37,210 that wasn't why. - I know. I know. 1620 01:18:37,250 --> 01:18:40,010 [birds chirping] 1621 01:18:42,150 --> 01:18:43,670 How about we get some rest, huh? 1622 01:18:43,700 --> 01:18:46,880 Your flight isn't till this afternoon. 1623 01:18:46,910 --> 01:18:49,500 We can ask for a late checkout. 1624 01:18:50,600 --> 01:18:51,430 Okay. 1625 01:18:52,430 --> 01:18:53,400 [door thuds] 1626 01:18:53,430 --> 01:18:54,540 - Oh, thanks. 1627 01:18:55,920 --> 01:18:58,820 Hey, do you, do you wanna like, uh, swap the bedspreads? 1628 01:18:58,850 --> 01:19:01,680 Uh, [stammers] this one in, in your room 1629 01:19:01,720 --> 01:19:03,890 and that one here? 1630 01:19:03,930 --> 01:19:06,340 - Oh, shit, yeah, sorry, I... 1631 01:19:07,380 --> 01:19:08,550 Well, it probably doesn't matter, right? 1632 01:19:08,590 --> 01:19:10,110 It's not like they have trackers on them 1633 01:19:10,140 --> 01:19:11,560 and they'll know if we switched. [chuckles] 1634 01:19:11,590 --> 01:19:13,870 - Yours, yours kinda smells like cigarette smoke, 1635 01:19:13,900 --> 01:19:16,660 so I thought I- I could just like take the heat on me, 1636 01:19:16,700 --> 01:19:19,120 in, in case there's a, a fee. 1637 01:19:20,080 --> 01:19:20,910 - Okay. 1638 01:19:25,980 --> 01:19:27,810 Okay. [chuckles] 1639 01:19:27,850 --> 01:19:28,780 - Okay. 1640 01:19:28,810 --> 01:19:29,850 - Okay. Yeah. 1641 01:19:36,270 --> 01:19:37,100 Well, I. 1642 01:19:38,620 --> 01:19:42,790 [soft gentle upbeat music] 1643 01:19:42,830 --> 01:19:44,800 - Yeah, you too, Franny. 1644 01:19:47,280 --> 01:19:49,490 [door creaking] 1645 01:19:49,520 --> 01:19:50,870 [door thuds] 1646 01:19:50,910 --> 01:19:54,050 [gentle upbeat music] 1647 01:19:57,290 --> 01:20:01,500 ♪ I took my time through the dark ♪ 1648 01:20:01,540 --> 01:20:05,750 ♪ Felt all my life in shades of night ♪ 1649 01:20:05,780 --> 01:20:10,100 ♪ I put my heart on the line ♪ 1650 01:20:10,130 --> 01:20:14,310 ♪ I lost it all for a little while ♪ 1651 01:20:14,340 --> 01:20:19,420 ♪ The other side keeps feeling farther away ♪ 1652 01:20:19,450 --> 01:20:22,830 ♪ When you've lost your way ♪ 1653 01:20:22,870 --> 01:20:25,110 ♪ I've been all the way down ♪ 1654 01:20:25,150 --> 01:20:27,940 ♪ But you know we all have our day ♪ 1655 01:20:27,980 --> 01:20:31,770 ♪ When we find our way ♪ 1656 01:20:31,810 --> 01:20:35,740 ♪ Everyone who has a heart ♪ 1657 01:20:35,780 --> 01:20:40,130 ♪ They've got to believe ♪ 1658 01:20:40,160 --> 01:20:44,300 ♪ When everything can fall apart ♪ 1659 01:20:44,340 --> 01:20:47,650 ♪ You've got to believe ♪ 1660 01:20:48,550 --> 01:20:49,830 [gentle upbeat music continues] 1661 01:20:49,860 --> 01:20:52,420 [Ben coughing] 1662 01:20:56,520 --> 01:20:57,490 [Ben gulps] 1663 01:20:57,520 --> 01:21:01,360 ♪ I get so low when I watch the news ♪ 1664 01:21:01,390 --> 01:21:05,460 ♪ The fools are in power, things ain't lookin' good ♪ 1665 01:21:05,500 --> 01:21:09,710 ♪ I've been sliding back into a losing fight ♪ 1666 01:21:09,740 --> 01:21:14,230 ♪ With my hurtin' heart ♪ 1667 01:21:14,260 --> 01:21:19,270 ♪ The other side keeps feeling farther away ♪ 1668 01:21:19,300 --> 01:21:22,720 ♪ When you've lost your way ♪ 1669 01:21:22,760 --> 01:21:25,170 ♪ I've been all the way down ♪ 1670 01:21:25,210 --> 01:21:27,860 ♪ But you know we all have our day ♪ 1671 01:21:27,900 --> 01:21:31,800 ♪ When we find our way ♪ 1672 01:21:31,830 --> 01:21:36,840 ♪ Everyone, you've got to believe ♪ 1673 01:21:37,840 --> 01:21:40,080 ♪ Oh, you've got to believe ♪ 1674 01:21:40,120 --> 01:21:41,810 [upbeat music] [hands clapping] 1675 01:21:41,840 --> 01:21:46,430 ♪ Oh, you've got to believe ♪ [knuckles rapping] 1676 01:21:46,470 --> 01:21:49,270 ♪ Oh, you've got to believe ♪ 1677 01:21:49,300 --> 01:21:50,090 - Bagels! 1678 01:21:52,920 --> 01:21:54,410 Mm! - Mm. 1679 01:21:54,440 --> 01:21:55,720 It's good. - Mm. 1680 01:21:59,690 --> 01:22:02,070 [Fran sighs] 1681 01:22:06,320 --> 01:22:07,700 Mm! [laughs] 1682 01:22:07,730 --> 01:22:10,420 You have a little on your ear. 1683 01:22:10,460 --> 01:22:13,080 - Oh, that's just shaving cream. 1684 01:22:14,010 --> 01:22:15,150 [Fran chuckles] 1685 01:22:15,190 --> 01:22:17,640 I was saving it for the next time I shave. 1686 01:22:17,670 --> 01:22:18,850 [Fran laughs] [Ben chuckles] 1687 01:22:18,880 --> 01:22:21,680 - Dad joke. - Hell, don't I wish. 1688 01:22:21,710 --> 01:22:23,260 [traffic droning] 1689 01:22:23,300 --> 01:22:24,130 Oh. 1690 01:22:25,440 --> 01:22:26,410 [Fran laughs] I'm so sorry. 1691 01:22:26,440 --> 01:22:27,960 I- - Oh my God! 1692 01:22:27,990 --> 01:22:30,170 - That is not funny at all. I am so sorry. 1693 01:22:30,200 --> 01:22:33,240 - No, it's actually really kind of funny. 1694 01:22:33,270 --> 01:22:36,170 [Fran laughs] 1695 01:22:36,210 --> 01:22:37,900 - All right. 1696 01:22:37,930 --> 01:22:40,320 [Fran sighs] 1697 01:22:41,730 --> 01:22:43,080 So good. 1698 01:22:43,110 --> 01:22:48,080 [birds chirping] [traffic droning] 1699 01:22:51,780 --> 01:22:55,120 - I don't know you anymore, do I? 1700 01:22:55,160 --> 01:22:57,990 [traffic droning] 1701 01:22:59,780 --> 01:23:02,550 [birds chirping] 1702 01:23:06,000 --> 01:23:08,760 But I've liked meeting you again, 1703 01:23:09,620 --> 01:23:12,210 and the man you've become. 1704 01:23:12,240 --> 01:23:14,800 [birds chirping] 1705 01:23:14,830 --> 01:23:17,800 [slow solemn music] 1706 01:23:24,050 --> 01:23:27,190 [bright solemn music] 1707 01:23:36,030 --> 01:23:39,750 [bright solemn music continues] 1708 01:23:39,790 --> 01:23:42,100 - I, uh, think I'm just, um, 1709 01:23:46,350 --> 01:23:47,490 gonna go pack. 1710 01:23:47,520 --> 01:23:48,800 - Why? 1711 01:23:48,830 --> 01:23:52,840 [bright solemn music continues] 1712 01:24:01,260 --> 01:24:02,500 [bright solemn music continues] 1713 01:24:02,540 --> 01:24:04,430 [door creaks] 1714 01:24:04,470 --> 01:24:05,950 [door thuds] 1715 01:24:05,990 --> 01:24:09,300 [bright solemn music continues] 1716 01:24:09,340 --> 01:24:12,550 [vocalist harmonizing] 1717 01:24:20,930 --> 01:24:22,520 [bright solemn music continues] 1718 01:24:22,560 --> 01:24:25,770 [vocalist harmonizing] 1719 01:24:34,090 --> 01:24:37,230 [gentle solemn music] 1720 01:24:38,740 --> 01:24:41,750 [traffic whooshing] 1721 01:24:43,850 --> 01:24:46,610 [birds chirping] 1722 01:24:55,110 --> 01:24:56,210 - [TV Announcer] Today, where we have 1723 01:24:56,250 --> 01:24:58,900 one really sweet event for you to enjoy this weekend. 1724 01:24:58,940 --> 01:25:00,110 [knuckles rapping] We have festivals 1725 01:25:00,150 --> 01:25:03,110 of all kinds in northwest Ohio, but. 1726 01:25:06,150 --> 01:25:08,500 [cup thuds] 1727 01:25:13,090 --> 01:25:16,370 - Uh, th- those were some pretty good bagels. [chuckles] 1728 01:25:16,400 --> 01:25:17,370 [Fran sighs] 1729 01:25:17,400 --> 01:25:19,960 Um, I- I wrapped it, you know, in case visually, 1730 01:25:19,990 --> 01:25:23,100 or also for some insulation. 1731 01:25:23,130 --> 01:25:26,030 And, and, and I know that I wasn't, 1732 01:25:26,970 --> 01:25:30,040 or this wasn't, you know, what, what you hoped for, 1733 01:25:30,070 --> 01:25:32,350 Franny, and I- I- I know that the past 24 hours 1734 01:25:32,380 --> 01:25:35,530 have been a whole thing and that I am, 1735 01:25:37,940 --> 01:25:39,430 I am also a whole thing. 1736 01:25:39,460 --> 01:25:44,090 Uh, but that I- I'm here and I- I'm not going to, 1737 01:25:44,120 --> 01:25:46,260 or in this process, I'm not, I'm not going anywhere. 1738 01:25:46,300 --> 01:25:48,020 I, u- unless you want me to go, 1739 01:25:48,060 --> 01:25:49,130 then of course I will go. 1740 01:25:49,160 --> 01:25:51,440 A hard gone, I am going. 1741 01:25:51,470 --> 01:25:54,410 But what I'm trying to say is that I know 1742 01:25:54,440 --> 01:25:55,820 that this is not easy, 1743 01:25:55,860 --> 01:26:00,030 but I- I'm, I'm kinda good at, at not easy things. 1744 01:26:00,070 --> 01:26:03,280 Um, and no matter h- how much you plan, 1745 01:26:04,280 --> 01:26:05,690 which you are very good at, all of that, 1746 01:26:05,730 --> 01:26:08,250 um, there's a high percentage, you know, 1747 01:26:08,280 --> 01:26:10,250 g- going forward, 1748 01:26:10,280 --> 01:26:13,360 that things are not going to be easy. 1749 01:26:14,430 --> 01:26:17,220 And, and, but I- I- I ca- I can be 1750 01:26:19,500 --> 01:26:22,880 of some help on those not easy parts, um. 1751 01:26:24,160 --> 01:26:25,890 We, I- I don't think you're a person 1752 01:26:25,920 --> 01:26:26,850 that needs a lot of help, 1753 01:26:26,890 --> 01:26:28,300 I- I think you can do just about anything. 1754 01:26:28,340 --> 01:26:31,130 - Shut up, Ben. Shut up. [laughs] 1755 01:26:31,170 --> 01:26:32,060 - Okay. Um. 1756 01:26:33,000 --> 01:26:34,930 I'll ju- I'll just. 1757 01:26:34,960 --> 01:26:37,520 There you go, and, um, 1758 01:26:37,550 --> 01:26:40,110 I think you have like 8 minutes and 56 seconds 1759 01:26:40,140 --> 01:26:43,210 for, uh, part one to finish up. 1760 01:26:43,250 --> 01:26:45,660 [device beeps] - Okay. [laughs] 1761 01:26:45,700 --> 01:26:47,050 - So I will, um. 1762 01:26:47,910 --> 01:26:51,360 [slow gentle rock music] 1763 01:26:51,390 --> 01:26:52,780 I will, uh, really pack 1764 01:26:52,810 --> 01:26:54,430 this time. [chuckles] - Yeah, okay. [laughs] 1765 01:26:54,470 --> 01:26:55,260 Okay. 1766 01:26:57,680 --> 01:27:00,850 [doors creaking and thudding] 1767 01:27:00,890 --> 01:27:05,750 [Fran sobbing] [slow gentle rock music] 1768 01:27:06,200 --> 01:27:08,930 [Fran gasps] 1769 01:27:08,960 --> 01:27:13,280 [slow gentle rock music continues] 1770 01:27:13,310 --> 01:27:15,730 [Fran sighs] 1771 01:27:16,700 --> 01:27:20,940 [slow gentle rock music continues] 1772 01:27:26,330 --> 01:27:27,670 [thunder rumbles] ♪ Oh ♪ 1773 01:27:27,710 --> 01:27:30,570 [gentle rock music] 1774 01:27:30,610 --> 01:27:32,950 ♪ Nothin' lasts forever ♪ 1775 01:27:32,990 --> 01:27:36,510 ♪ And we both know hearts can change ♪ 1776 01:27:36,540 --> 01:27:40,340 [gentle rock music continues] 1777 01:27:42,270 --> 01:27:45,280 ♪ And it's hard to hold a candle ♪ 1778 01:27:45,310 --> 01:27:48,040 ♪ In the cold November rain ♪ 1779 01:27:48,070 --> 01:27:51,730 [rousing gentle rock music] 1780 01:27:53,150 --> 01:27:56,110 [gentle rock music] 1781 01:27:58,980 --> 01:28:01,980 [upbeat rock music] 1782 01:28:04,950 --> 01:28:08,610 [rousing gentle rock music] 1783 01:28:12,270 --> 01:28:13,930 [gentle rock music] 1784 01:28:13,960 --> 01:28:16,890 [Ben sighs] 1785 01:28:16,930 --> 01:28:20,170 [energetic rock music] 1786 01:28:28,560 --> 01:28:32,630 [energetic rock music continues] 1787 01:28:38,260 --> 01:28:41,230 [lively rock music] 1788 01:28:49,650 --> 01:28:51,760 [lively rock music continues] 1789 01:28:51,790 --> 01:28:54,350 ♪ Don't you think that you need somebody ♪ 1790 01:28:54,380 --> 01:28:57,040 ♪ Don't you think that you need someone ♪ 1791 01:28:57,070 --> 01:28:59,590 ♪ Everybody needs somebody ♪ 1792 01:28:59,630 --> 01:29:02,250 ♪ You're not the only one ♪ ♪ You're not the only one ♪ 1793 01:29:02,280 --> 01:29:04,840 ♪ You're not the only one ♪ ♪ You're not the only one ♪ 1794 01:29:04,870 --> 01:29:07,530 ♪ Don't you think that you need somebody ♪ 1795 01:29:07,570 --> 01:29:10,260 ♪ Don't you think that you need someone ♪ 1796 01:29:10,290 --> 01:29:13,780 ♪ Everybody needs somebody ♪ 1797 01:29:13,810 --> 01:29:18,650 [gentle rock music] [device chiming] 1798 01:29:18,680 --> 01:29:19,960 [Fran exclaims] 1799 01:29:19,990 --> 01:29:23,720 [gentle rock music continues] 1800 01:29:23,750 --> 01:29:25,070 [knuckles rapping] 1801 01:29:25,100 --> 01:29:28,660 [device continues chiming] 1802 01:29:30,480 --> 01:29:33,210 [rain pattering] [gentle music] 1803 01:29:33,250 --> 01:29:35,460 [door creaking] 1804 01:29:35,490 --> 01:29:36,560 - Is this gonna be something 1805 01:29:36,590 --> 01:29:38,250 that, that you need to use? 1806 01:29:38,290 --> 01:29:40,490 - Uh, I- I'm all set, so. 1807 01:29:40,530 --> 01:29:42,290 [vibrator thuds] 1808 01:29:42,320 --> 01:29:43,840 [bottle squeaks] - Hm! 1809 01:29:43,880 --> 01:29:44,710 - [Fran] Yeah. 1810 01:29:44,740 --> 01:29:46,090 [Fran gasps] - Sorry. 1811 01:29:46,120 --> 01:29:48,020 [birds chirping] 1812 01:29:48,050 --> 01:29:49,570 - Nice glasses. 1813 01:29:49,610 --> 01:29:51,230 - Oh, thanks. 1814 01:29:51,260 --> 01:29:52,300 Yeah, I know, I know they're kinda big, 1815 01:29:52,330 --> 01:29:53,540 but the doctor says they're, like, good 1816 01:29:53,580 --> 01:29:54,610 with my peripheral vision. 1817 01:29:54,650 --> 01:29:56,550 - Yeah, they're nice. 1818 01:29:56,580 --> 01:30:00,690 - Yeah. [birds chirping] 1819 01:30:00,720 --> 01:30:03,520 Uh, I think, I think I'm just gonna go 1820 01:30:03,550 --> 01:30:05,210 to the airport a little early. 1821 01:30:05,240 --> 01:30:06,310 They have these massage chairs. 1822 01:30:06,350 --> 01:30:07,690 I know, I know, they're kind of expensive, 1823 01:30:07,730 --> 01:30:12,390 but, well, I- I'm a member of the loyalty program, so. 1824 01:30:12,420 --> 01:30:15,150 [birds chirping] 1825 01:30:16,940 --> 01:30:19,570 Did, uh, did everything go okay? 1826 01:30:20,850 --> 01:30:23,990 - It went great, I- I- I think, you know? 1827 01:30:24,020 --> 01:30:27,710 Now I just wait. [chuckles] 1828 01:30:29,030 --> 01:30:30,820 - I- I know it's none of my business, 1829 01:30:30,860 --> 01:30:33,370 and, and, and with the forms legally. [stammers] 1830 01:30:33,410 --> 01:30:36,210 So please know, I like, I- I- I know all that. 1831 01:30:36,240 --> 01:30:38,730 It just, um, if you needed to, 1832 01:30:40,520 --> 01:30:43,070 or, or, or want to tell me- 1833 01:30:43,110 --> 01:30:43,970 - Of course. - How things go. 1834 01:30:44,010 --> 01:30:44,970 - Of, of course. 1835 01:30:45,010 --> 01:30:47,080 I- I'll, um, I'll call you. 1836 01:30:47,110 --> 01:30:48,460 I- is it okay if I call you? 1837 01:30:48,490 --> 01:30:51,120 - Yeah, yeah, sure. - Yeah, okay. 1838 01:30:52,500 --> 01:30:53,530 - And, and if anything happens, 1839 01:30:53,570 --> 01:30:57,160 I can be here, or there, wherever, however. 1840 01:30:59,370 --> 01:31:01,260 [birds chirping] 1841 01:31:01,300 --> 01:31:03,750 And, and if anything, it doesn't happen, 1842 01:31:03,780 --> 01:31:07,370 you know, yet, I can be there too. 1843 01:31:07,410 --> 01:31:10,240 [traffic droning] 1844 01:31:12,830 --> 01:31:14,280 - Thank you. 1845 01:31:14,310 --> 01:31:17,070 [birds chirping] 1846 01:31:18,350 --> 01:31:22,390 ♪ Ooh, everybody needs some time ♪ 1847 01:31:22,420 --> 01:31:24,430 ♪ On their own ♪ 1848 01:31:24,460 --> 01:31:28,460 ♪ Ooh, don't you know you need some time ♪ 1849 01:31:28,500 --> 01:31:30,190 ♪ All alone ♪ 1850 01:31:30,220 --> 01:31:33,880 [rousing gentle rock music] 1851 01:31:35,330 --> 01:31:38,340 [gentle rock music] 1852 01:31:46,660 --> 01:31:50,490 [gentle rock music continues] 1853 01:31:58,560 --> 01:32:00,770 [gentle rock music continues] 1854 01:32:00,810 --> 01:32:03,640 ♪ And when your fears subside ♪ 1855 01:32:03,670 --> 01:32:08,020 ♪ And shadows still remain ♪ [vocalists humming] 1856 01:32:08,060 --> 01:32:10,020 ♪ Oh yeah ♪ 1857 01:32:10,060 --> 01:32:12,960 [gentle rock music continues] 1858 01:32:12,990 --> 01:32:15,820 ♪ I know that you can love me ♪ 1859 01:32:15,860 --> 01:32:18,650 ♪ When there's no one left to blame ♪ 1860 01:32:18,690 --> 01:32:22,410 [vocalists humming] 1861 01:32:22,450 --> 01:32:25,000 [gentle rock music continues] 1862 01:32:25,040 --> 01:32:27,870 ♪ So never mind the darkness ♪ 1863 01:32:27,900 --> 01:32:31,600 ♪ We still can find a way ♪ 1864 01:32:31,630 --> 01:32:35,460 [gentle rock music continues] 1865 01:32:37,120 --> 01:32:39,850 ♪ 'Cause nothin' lasts forever ♪ 1866 01:32:39,880 --> 01:32:42,400 ♪ Even cold November rain ♪ 1867 01:32:42,430 --> 01:32:45,440 [upbeat rock music] 1868 01:32:54,240 --> 01:32:58,070 [upbeat rock music continues] 1869 01:33:02,180 --> 01:33:05,800 [rousing gentle rock music] 1870 01:33:06,910 --> 01:33:09,880 [gentle rock music] 1871 01:33:11,390 --> 01:33:14,400 [upbeat rock music] 1872 01:33:16,850 --> 01:33:20,680 [energetic upbeat rock music] 1873 01:33:29,380 --> 01:33:33,970 [energetic upbeat rock music continues]